Distant.

Oh well. Today is official the last day of my holiday. School resumes tomorrow. That dude's missing in action. I just had a stoned Sunday. I was literally numb for like the whole afternoon. I didn't want to think about it so I just went to sleep. I don't know what to feel. Am i supposed to be annoyed? Or am i supposed to think it's very normal? What the hell. I really wished he'd stop leaving me hanging. I don't understand this bullshit. 

Sudden breakdown yesterday night before I slept. Like I don't know. Can't be that I was PMS-ing because my menses were long over!!! Oh my god just suddenly had a lot of thoughts coming to mind and all that bullshit. BULLSHIT. :(

Had dinner with my family at night. Daddy was still being so cute and all trying to make me laugh. Sigh I feel so bad for not talking to them the entire week. I don't want them to know that I'm upset. It's so hard for me to hide my emotions so it's really better I lock myself up and suffer finish first then get out of my prison.

I'm really not prepared for school. 

I'm just not.