I am so mentally and physically exhausted. Fuck my life. It's only day 4 of school. 

I really don't like the site specific work that we're doing for lasalle's new campus at winstedt. Like wtf it's not even a dance or anything. I can't even call it abstract. We look like we're barbarians going through BMT. Suddenly plank la, suddenly roll on the floor la, suddenly keep stomping our foot like it doesn't hurt la. Then like all of her ideas weren't stupid enough, she made us imitate chickens and said she liked it a lot. What the fuccckkkkk. OMG thank god next week no more this shit. I really cannot stand that stupid new campus. It feels like a deserted prison and it's so bloody hot there. Everytime I go there I feel so school-sick. LIKE WTF PLS JUST LET ME STAY IN LASALLE DONT MAKE ME GO SOME PRISON LOOKING PLACE. I feel sad for the people who have to go there to study. So sad. Thank god we're in Mcnelly campus. I appreciate my school so much suddenly because that place at winstedt is simply horrible beyond words. 

So we've been through 2 Albert's classes already. I can't believe I could actually do his exercise when my hamstring and quads are like literally snapping. This is really not good pain and I'm so scared for myself. But then again ITS ALBERT. Pain also die die must do. Argh fuck I really don't think I'm so bad I swear. Especially in his class... I am not saying I'm good at contemp but I really don't think I'm the worst in his class?!??!!!! Only in his class I can switch sides so quickly. Mentally working so fast that I really just blank out after that. I mean he scolds everyone but his comments to ME ah, seriously always the same. I'm just like what the fuck man you tell me to sit I sit you tell me to point I point I listen to him like a fucking dog and apparently to him it still looks like I can't dance?!?! OHMYGOD ANGRY BIRD. What the hell does he want I really wonder. Still quite shocked that he never mention about my size again. I think it will come soon. -Just waiting for it- He makes me tremble but I've learnt to just take it in. COME AT ME DOOD as long as I know I'm trying so mafaking hard. 

Had the first ballet class today too with Melissa. I was really too out of class la. Dazed like hell. My legs were really hurting like fuck even a 45 degree leg lift hurts like shit. I bet no one in my class believes me la that's why I just meh push on. Horrible ballet class. Me didn't like. My feet also started having that bruised sensation again and I was like argh!!!!! 

My appetite nowadays damn screwed up. Lunch I'm totally not hungry at all. Don't say breakfast because I don't eat breakfast. I only eat dinner everyday now. Like since Monday... God. Andrea says it's the heartbreak that gives me no appetite. I kinda understand what she meant but LOL I don't think I'm going through a heartbreak la so drama. I've just been thinking too much and like feeling insecure and shit. 

Been hanging out at the frass after school with Andrea everyday. The wind at night is just really AMAZING!!!!! even just now when I was sleeping at the frass at 5ish. There was sun.... But the wind was so cold I couldn't even be bothered with the sun. If only every time of the day was that cold/windy. Perfect!!!! 

TGIF GUYS TGIF I really hope I have a good Friday. This week has been too tiring. I need a massage on the weekends or else I really cannot survive week 2. Goodnight.