Distance

Finally the end of the week!!!!!!

Yesterday was a rather slacky day. Winstedt rehearsal was the worse of all. Other than that, all was good. Same as the usual, slept on the frass after school. Half the frasss was occupied by the Walking Dead stuff. Haha yup the cast of Walking Dead was at LASALLE this morning~~

At 7ish I was teaching Albert's exercise to Rosanne. Rolling and turning on the dirty floor and all… Everyone looking at us like some idiot :\ There's like a difference when I dance on the frass and on the floor. LOL I don't know why. It's like if I dance on the frass i get judged less. HAHA rubbish omg. Dancers dance everywhere!!! :B Until 8 we stopped because the performers and a few dancers had Dragon/Lion dance rehearsal.

Oh my god la I was so sweaty and all from practicing albert's exercise. & at that moment Becky and Rif came out of the door nearest to the frass. First time I see this boy so excited to see me omg. FOR REAL LOL. (Ok maybe Mystica was the first aiya whateverssss) & he hugged me so tight some more omg I felt so bad. I mean I'm sure I was not smelly or what but I was still sweaty!!!! Oh well~

Walked around and then went to sit with him at square 1!!!! But I got interrupted by everyone around me. What's new man really -_- I can never talk to him alone. He only walks to a secret corner for someone. Yup…. this sadness lol I'm just not important enough. Aiya whatever i shouldn't be bothered with it anyway!!! Ok so I walked away. Cuz it seemed like I was the one being extra. Like wtf. 

Sat at the black hole and watched the dragon rehearse with the percussion. The ambience at the frass at night is simply amazing… Really, the wind, the chillness. I just really love it. Totally didn't even wanna look at the person who made me so meh. Then I don't know for what reason he suddenly sit beside me. I was mad but I didn't wanna show it so I had to calm myself down first before acknowledging his presence beside me lol wtf.

After he said one sentence to me he sat on the floor below me. Lol what? Ok then we got interrupted again #NOTHINGNEW. Aiya but then his head leaned on my leg as if my legs were a head rester and then things got a lil better. Started teasing my small hands again and all… After rehearsal ended, I thought we could all go dinner but plans obviously didn't go as planned. Andrea was not feeling good and she just walked off. Becky Rif and Afiq were at square 1 singing to Frozen OSTs. All of them were imitating Elsa and Anna. Hahaha they were so amazing and fun to watch. Totally made my night <3 I freaking love Frozen!!!!!! 

Went to have dinner with Becky and then went home. She told me something that he has planned. I felt….. good? Because I was in his plans? But then again it might not happen… So…. yup. I guess It's good enough he even thought about it. I felt bad for not saying the truth. Argh fuck I'm such a horrible liar. It was haunting me the entire night even up till now. I'm gonna tell her the truth later when I see her for dinner. Well…. A part of me really hopes he comes too tonight but I doubt it. I mean he's never ever free for me. Never even if it's just 5 minutes. 

Nothing really special la. The only special moment I had yesterday only lasted for less than a minute. Then it was gone. Oh wells. I don't know where this is going. I really don't. We're all busy. I know that. But no matter what he's still on my mind. This week was such a…. week of waiting for something that never happened. Waiting for a text that never came. Waiting for a dinner that never happened. Waiting waiting waiting. Then there are some days I just …. don't know anymore. I'll just continue waiting.