Died in school today. How did that even happened?
I randomly woke up at 6 this morning because my whatsapp group chats were being noisy as hell. Like what the hell. I stayed awake for 30minutes which never happened in my life and then fell back to sleep. I heard my alarm ring but it didn't occur to me that it was my last alarm. I set like 5 alarms with 15minute intervals. So my earliest alarm is 6 but since I slept again at 6.30 my next earliest alarm was 6.45. Lol when i woke up it was already 8.25. Hahahaha and class starts what time? 8.30am. Oh wells so I just continued sleeping since my next class is at 10.30am.
Jazz was a short class but it was a killer... Maybe because my body is seriously worn out. My shoulders are dying on me. My quads just needs to commit suicide now. Needless to say, wushu was A MAD KILLER. Lol army training guys army training (girls ver). Friday's wushu class is pure body conditioning class ok. Running jumps squats pushups whatever shit la. Was initially planning to sit out of class because the right side of my body really died...... My right shoulder, my back, my hips, my quads, my shin. HORRIBLE CONDITION. I still did class anyway. How did I even find the will to persevere the whole class I wonder...
After class, went to physio room with coach ling. If guys don't already know, besides being our wushu teacher, he's also our chiropractor. So I told him my shoulder was hurting. He helped me fix it but right now it hurts, AGAIN. Ok after that he lessen the pain on the shin. At least I felt a lil better. He asked me if my back was hurting. OBVIOUSLY IT WAS. So he pressed it until I almost shriek like a freaking baby. Why so pain why is my body in so much pain I cannot take it T_T My pain threshold is actually quite high... For me to feel this much pain means my body is really breaking down. Fuck this shit just give me my holidays. Argh. I don't really have a valid excuse to sit out of class either because it's not like I have a broken arm or a broken leg or a fracture feet like last semester. I'm so tired....
During our break, Luvenia Andrea and Jingwen were talking about sad love stories and shit. I was just over there listening to their stories and feeling so sad for them. Oh god feelings are so shitty. Sometimes I wish I have no feelings so I wouldn't get hurt. I guess this is what happens when you've been disappointed time and time again by the ones whom were dear to you and treasure the most. So many things said were so true. Sad sia on valentine's day talk about such things. Reality is a bitch.
A dear friend broke down in front of me today. I was happy that she thought I would be comforting to be with when she's at her low. At least someone thinks of me and trust me enough to tell me everything. At least someone didn't take my words for granted. When i say "I'll be there for you" or "I'll lend you a listening ear" I mean it. I don't say it for the sake of it. "Actions speak louder than words" Stupid people who talk so much shit but does nothing really drives me crazy. My sadness/misery towards this person has recently changed into anger. Everytime this person gets mentioned while she was talking to me, all I can do was to try my best to understand from his point of view but at the same time scold him in my head for being such a bitch. I mean come on. Everyone in the god damn school is stressed as hell. Learn how to freaking balance your life and not throw tantrums on the people around you. A friend was just trying to do her job by being there for you. So many people's here for you and yet you just treat everyone like nothing. So oblivious and shit. -_-
My school's a tiring place to be in. I don't really know where I find the strength to hold on but yeah let's do this shizzzz.
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