Not in the best of mood. I hate this. I guess my month's been alternating. December was a happy month, January was just fucking sad and depressing, February was a happy month too. March started out bad and it's day 2 and it's not getting any better. Hate that my short holiday has come to an end. School again tomorrow. Here we go again.
I really need to forget everything that happened on Fri night. Everyone needs to forget what happened. I hate that they all saw everything and yet no one did anything except Joel and Liqian. I hate being the fucking highlight of the night. I hate that they are gonna remember me for that night. FUCK IT just forget it. Wrong company equals bad night. Did I mention how many times I fucking fell because of the stairs that I couldn't see?! So annoyed.
Saturday wasn't a good day because yup I was just stoning at home. Didn't have a good sleep after partying. Couldn't vomit couldn't urinate couldn't shit. Technically the alcohol was circulating in my system for the whole night and whole morning. So damn miserable. Had an impromptu meet up with Jaz for dinner at night. So random... After sleeping so much she finally decided to get out of her house. Went to Paradise Dynasty for dinner. Argh waited for almost an hour. Was hungry like cray. Told her I was really shag and I really couldn't drink anymore and she kept insisting that I should go with her. STUPID I asked her to accompany me to Zouk the other night and she just didn't want to. Meh so I just kept saying no. Went home at 10ish and slept at 12. Early for a Saturday night... Needed the sleep.
Woke up feeling so shitty. Someone needs to tell me why people love leaving me at my lowest.. The timing is always so right. Hate this shit hate it hate it hate it.
Went out to meet my clique. Was considering not going because somebody said we were going out. But some part of me knew we weren't gonna meet. I woke up at 8 and I just felt like shit and continued sleeping. At 12 I got up and went to bathe. & last minute i decided to go, still hoping we might meet maybe in the evening. But no. Whole afternoon thinking about how fucked up I am. Like lol I just need to slap myself awake sometimes. Guys seriously, if anything ever works out perfectly for me uh, the sky will drop. Really. I'm just an unlucky piece of shit.
Why does one bad thing happen after another? My mom needs to stop pestering me. She's been too into my life lately and I'm just like..... argh I don't even know what's going on. Right now I really don't wanna know. I feel good that I don't need to hide anything from her but still.. So frustrating that she keeps asking. No means no la omg stop already.
My right side of the body is definitely not gonna survive the week. I really don't know what to do and I'm actually worried and really wanna know what's wrong with it. Sucks la 10 more weeks. So long. Damn.
I hate that the past is coming back to haunt me. This month is gonna be so horrible. I can feel it already... :'( Save me, get me out of Singapore.
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