Should've known

Sigh the person I want to text with doesn't like to text. The people that I don't want to freaking reply are forever talking to me. God can't y'all get the signs and just forget it. Haiya I'm so annoyed. Everytime my phone rings I have this slight hope that it's him. And then...... no. Make me meh for nothing. MEH! Whatever la I've already gotten used to it la

"Something that I feel I need to say, but up till now I've always been afraid that you would never come around. And yes there are times when I hate you but I don't complain. Cuz I've been afraid that you would walk away. It pains me to say that I'll be there at the end of the day." 

Ah my heart. Sigh to the pie. Wait die me. But I should be contented that at least things are okay now. Right? Lol, 1 more month to go. I've waited for 3 months 1 more month is nothing... I don't know la. It's always the last month that goes very slow for me. I mean technically I only have classes for another 3 weeks but.... school only officially ends in the first week of May. Other people probably have their assessments till then. Only School of Dance have assessments this early.. LOL

SUMMER BREAK I WANT MY SUMMER BREAK.... Will things get better by then? Will there be less excuses? Will it will it will it?

Don't understand this word "love". I really don't. Was asking around just now. Oh my god. "I think i love him, because even though he's treating me like this I still want to give him so much more. I still try and I still care for him. So maybe that's love?" One of my friends gave me this as an answer. Another one was "I knew I love him when I lost him. It was when he started ignoring me that I know how much he meant to me."

No one believed me when I said I knew that if I waited, something good will come out of it. Everyone thought I was crazy. Well even I thought I was too, honestly. I was losing hope as each day passes and I really don't know where I find that faith to keep it going. Like faaaak shan's heart is ridiculous. -_- Even up till now I'm still like..... What the hell am I doing... Didn't I say that it was the last time..... G o d . . . . . He comes back at the very point when I'm about to give up totally. Like at the exact moment. I don't even know how it's so accurate. Same as last year....

I... believe in your words. Or rather, I believe in my intuition. Okay so because of that I'm just going to.... trust you. 1 more month. I don't know I'm just gonna have to believe. What else can I do right