29th March

So my Saturday was spent on Rifdee's birthday. He invited me last minute and....... I actually can't believe I went. This is the first time ever that I went to a party without people that I'm comfortable with. I went alone yo alone. It was such a yolo decision. Performance kids were asking like "where's the rest? oh you come alone ah?" Don't know what to answer. Whoops. :\ I wouldn't say I regretted going but.... what now? I still don't get it. I know some things are not meant to have answers to it. I still feel like I'm left hanging. I guess I have to wait again, for this one whole month of hectic assessments to be over, for me to know anything.

Roif told Rif: Ah wanted to photobomb 

But I already took the photo so he walked away. 

Me: Hahaha want to take together???? 

Roif: -Hesitates....- Hmmm OK!

So cute omg Roif 

Afiq and his sexy cleavage!! Hahaha

Me: What face is that!

Shafiq: -Sly smile- Hahaha act cute face

Left his chalet at 10.30 and had trouble calling the cab. I don't know whether to wait at the entrance of the chalet or outside the bungalow. So confused. Rif and Shafiq accompanied me to wait for the taxi at the chalet's entrance. I also don't know what Shafiq was telling the uncle also. But whatever it was the taxi still came in the end. So fast some more!!! So thankful.

Went to find Luv and co at Clarke Quay!! It was the first time Jingwen's clubbing!! Gosh I was excited at first. Like even though I had so little booze I was still excited. But it was a lil too early to dance but they danced anyway. I was conscious because..... yeah I was so damn sober and the dance floor only had us. No one else was dancing. Cray jingwen is cray~~

I was so tired at around 1ish and at 2 I already started becoming even more sober. Suddenly we had a cypher going on. Like fak I was too sober to enjoy. It was like showcasing your talent and I'm like dang girl no moves here. & Jingwen kept pushing me into the circle and I'm like yo hi yeah sober girl here only knows how to split. I was okay with the cypher though, but it was going on for so damn long and no one else was moving. We became the centre of attention. AGAIN. -_- Yeah had no mood after that so I went home at 4. But nevertheless it was fun with Jingwen!!!!~~~~~ Yay you're no longer a club virgin!!! Woohoo!!!

Show em boobiez 

Reached home and got lectured by my father. Lol. They really don't understand how good of a daughter I am in comparison to other people's daughters. Don't compare me to a nerd that comes home at 6pm or someone who's like..... idk man, from another world from me. Compare me with someone that is at least living the kind of life I'm living. At least I know my limits. & It's not like I'm doing this everyday man. If I go to a bar yeah okay, coming home at 1 or 2 is understandable. But I freaking went to party. What the hell. Whatever la since I'm living off them I can't say anything right. I'll just have to wait till I earn my own money and then I'll have my own say in my own life. For now I'll just listen. Fuck la. 

Dreamt of the same person two nights in a row. Wow shan. But Winnie had to disrupt my dream. So I can't remember it anymore!!!! Sucks. Alright.... The long awaited 29th of March is over... Really didn't expect it to be this happening but okay. Back to reality again. Gonna get thru the next 3 weeks. I don't know how but alright I can do this!!! Next thing to look forward to, is definitely the holidays. So close. So so close.