I am so curious who reads my blog. I just checked my overall stats and I was like whaaaat... I mean yeah this is a public site but most of the referral links just comes straight from my link. Meaning they typed my link out or... they stalk my social media sites and found my link. I don't ever publicise my blog after every post. I just blog it like writing a diary. Like YEAH I spent 30minutes trying to figure out who would ever read this blog of mine besides the people whom I already know reads it. But the stats obviously doesn't tally... I have individual post stats. Meaning the number of reads for each posts. & yup one of the posts that has the most reads.... "29th March"

Gosh really on holiday mood already. I woke up late 3 out of the 4 days left of official classes and I didn't even plan it. I only went for 2 ballet lessons and 1 contemporary lesson out of the entire week. Wow hooray to me.

Saw him just now and it seemed like I just got ignored, AGAIN. Lol I shall give him the benefit of doubt. Maybe he didn't see me. -inserts crying emoji- WHY AM I LIKE THAT WHY..... Argh I'm so sad I can't even. I've reached the point where I don't even know what to feel anymore. I'm like should I go out and get wasted and forget about my life? I don't even have the feel to do that. The thought of having a long crazy night kinda turns me off suddenly. It's like I want to and yet.... I choose not to because I feel like my heart just simply wants to drown in misery. Like what the fuck. I suddenly don't see any light to this again. Like no I just don't. AND WHY DO I ALWAYS ACT LIKE IT DOESN'T BOTHER ME. I hate this about me I swear I do but I can't help it. I just simply don't want anyone to know how I feel about the things happening around me. That's the reason why I have a blog what right lol.

It's weird. Because even though I know how much actions mean so much more than words, I hold on to the words you said. Everytime you ignore me every time you do something that is so contradicting to your words, I always tell myself "No he said that. So yeah because you said that I'm gonna believe that whatever you're doing, you have a reason for it." Why shan why :'(

Gonna head back to Danzpeople probably next week. I miss that place. I miss dancing without feeling stressed. Sigh trust me when I say I can't even dance my fave genre well anymore... That's why I say I've lost everything... I suddenly don't know how to perform anymore because of the lack of performances in year 2.. I'm back to square 1. Yes it's been 4 months and I still haven't found back my motivation.

Another thing I wish to accomplish this holiday. Very hard for me because I know I'll be damn inconsistent. I want to play the piano again.. Sometimes I really regret quitting. If my mother had just insisted that I complete all 8 grades I think I would've hated her at that point of time but I'd definitely thank her in the later years.... I totally forgot everything that I've learnt. Seriously horrible. Of course my sight reading still sucks. It was never ever good even when I was learning guitar. I remember that one time I had to sight read TWO lines for guitar exam and I wanted to kill myself already. Yes I suck at sight reading. I play by memorising the whole piece. & I always get scolded for memorising because it was totally not helping my sight reading. Gah.

Just finished my first episode of Awkward's Season 4. WHY AM I SUCH A JENNA HAMILTON!!!! WHY I'm just so similar to her I CAN'T!!!! & Tamara really reminds me of Andrea LIKE LOL every time Jenna and Tamara hangs out I just see Me and Andrea. Well My Matty is not even close to a Matty la god. Sigh I'm such a Jo Masterson from Twisted and Jenna Hamilton from Awkward.

Gonna spend my Good Friday at home... Bond with my bed, and myself and my thoughts maybe. Oh Kdramas!!!! Haven't watch them this whole semester!!! The last I watched was The man I love from another star!!! So long ago omg time for me to catch up.