Have I really been blind to reality? Tell me baby

SURVIVED WITHOUT THE INTERNET FOR 1HOUR HOORAY TO ME. Damn it was torturing

Stayed home yesterday. Slept at 6 in the morn nothing surprising over there. Met up with Andrea at 1.30pm in the afternoon not knowing where the hell we were going. Yup very aimless like how we always are HAHAHA. So she told me Shawn was gonna come find us later. Well "later" was pretty much lateeeeee because by then we had already finished our lunch. When he came it was just aimless walking all over school area...

Sat at Wilkie Edge's Starbucks and talked for quite awhile. Then decided to go somewhere else because Shawn haven't ate. Continued walking aimlessly and landed in Burger King. So we sat there again for like almost 2hours or something. He treated us nuggets heh.... Thankyou!! Then Shawn had to go somewhere so me and Andrea went back to school to chill. Then Shawn came and find us. I was definitely worried because when he left he told us he only had 10% of battery left. His whatsapp messages were still only 1 tick and when we tried to called him, it went to voicemail immediately. How on earth would he be able to find us man?!

So yeah okay he went to borrow some stranger's portable charger to charge his phone and called us after that. God bless. LOL Went to Fatty's for dinner. WELL WE WERE BASICALLY EATING THE WHOLE DAMN DAY!!!! Also talking and talking and talking. SHAWN'S TREAT TOOOO. Oh my god felt a little bad la to be honest. But awww!!

I definitely need some detox tea or pill or something for the next few days. All that goes in must come out!!!!

Meh so much thoughts, YET AGAIN. LIKE LOL NEVER ENDING. HAHAHA so i read this article about nice guys. &.... YOU KNOW WHAT YEAH I AM A NICE GUY. Alright a girl in my case. Definitely a nice girl. & It obviously sucks to be one but fuck I can never change. Just read the paragraph below and change everything into a girl's pov ok :B

"The nice guy has been hurt, too, he just chose to stay nice. He learned that different people were going to provide him different things in life. The nice guy also chose not to let any of it change who he was. So, he let you walk away and he called it a day. Everyone always says there are plenty of fish in the sea, and he let you go knowing this, even though it hurt." 

Right now I'm definitely very tired because of the lack of sleep AGAIN but I definitely cannot sleep. Sucks sia. Totally not looking forward to the Japan trip.... I feel like yeah it's good to get out of Singapore and leave everything here. But how am I gonna do that? I have too much on my mind to leave it here. I can do it but do I want to do it? Bewhew

I can't believe July is next month. I mean I know June just started but I feel my June flying past very fast. July is the last month of my holidays.... No.... I can't believe my birthday is coming again. I still feel like last year's birthday was just a few months back.. I was just thinking about it when I was bathing just now. How I came into my room at 11plus at night and I saw Yvonne and Liqian there with a freaking cake.... It may not be the grandest way of celebrating my 18th birthday but it is definitely unforgettable. I can never ever forget. So much love I cannot I love them so much. It was like one of my saddest and happiest birthdays ever. 

Well thinking about my birthday now because Shawn's been talking about birthday parties the whole day. I think this year will be a year there I'm invited the most to birthday parties. The people close to me never ever have birthday parties. & It's weird how this year people that I'm close to seem to all want to have a birthday party. Well not me. I like the idea of parties but I don't like me being the center of attention. Never did in my life. I would want a birthday party but what do people do in birthday parties? I don't know how to entertain people I don't how to plan one!!! Plus.... quite sickening that my birthday is always during pre-orientation week. Oh wells I'm just gonna pray my birthday this year will be a good one.... I kinda already know what my wish will be even though it's one of the world's most impossible wishes hahah. OH WELLS.