I'm aching so much from danceeeeee. Sigh save me this is not even school sia. HAHAHA 3 days of dance only I liddat already. Can't imagine how i'll feel when school reopens. First week confirm mati already. HAHAHA!!!! But ok can still building up my stamina now.

Haven't slept well for 2 days straight. Been sleeping at like 4/5 and waking up at like 10. Omg and I hate it the most when people disrupt my sleep. "eh faster wake up eh shanette what time already eh eh eh faster" PAK YOU!!!!! OMG stupid aunty made me so cranky this morning. But when i reached home in the afternoon, slept till like 7pm LOL JEEZ me and my screwed up body clock...

Omg I really don't know what to do on my birthday... Whyyyyyyyy omg I'm actually thinking of going to the beach at night and party HAHAHA so stupid. Someone save me what do people do on birthday lah sial?

Sometimes I really wish I was not that well off. I know everyone thinks I'm crazy. But seriously. My parents are overly attached parents. Overly worried parents. I'm fucking 19. If they can lock me at home I'm sure they will. Just because they think I'm not ready to see the world. They have NOOOOOO clue how much I've seen the world and how much I know about this fucked up place. Of course they have lived longer than me, seen more things than me. But still this is my life and I want to explore the world myself. Dangerous or not YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE. As long as I don't get raped, as long as I can differentiate what's right and what's wrong, as long as I know who's bad and who's good, I'M ALL GOOD. I want to survive on my own so bad.

I really think one of the main reasons why I'm so socially awkward is because OF MY PARENTS. They don't let me out. They don't let me experience the working world. Cmon if I was poor they'd let me do ANYTHING that gives me money. (Of course know my limits la hor. Not sell body all la.) I'm talking about graveyard hour shift jobs. DAFAK WHY CAN'T I DO IT? They think I sleep at night issit? Instead of wasting my time TRYING TO SLEEP when I obviously can't, I could be earning $13 per hour just by typing nonsense on a damn computer. They think very funny "I'LL PAY YOU $147 FOR YOU TO STAY HOME" Kanina that's not even the point. I DON'T WANNA STAY HOME. They don't bloody get it.

Ok then don't work k. Don't work at least leave some allowance at home right. So I can save if I don't go out and if I do, I have more money to use right. God. So stingy for what. Don't let me work then LEAVE MONEY AT HOME DAMN. I get so mad when I stay home and I see no allowance. It's like I stay home for nothing because I AM NOT SAVING MONEY. I DON'T EVEN HAVE MONEY.

So mad. Talk about this money thing really drive me crazy. Actually why should I ask my parents about my jobs?!?!!?!? I should just accept it and work and don't give a shit about them sia. Omg stupid I always think about them but they always think I don't think about them. Dafak man. Really hao xin mei hao bao one.

Ya la I very angry now. Meh. Whatevers if my rant doesn't make sense. Good if it doesn't. I understand can already.