It was so nice reminiscing and talking about dance with Edem today... Hais finally back in my comfort zone.. I miss it so much.. The only comfort place for me is the dance studio.. The only people I can move around freely and not be judged are with dancers.. I feel so free.. Ah I miss it so much I don't think I'll ever be able to let go my dance life.. Never.. 

I want to be back in studios taking classes.. I actually miss technique classes what the hellsssss. Ahhhhh sighs what should I do with my wrecked life 

I don't wanna come home. Becuz I am so tired of facing my parents questions. I'm so sick of having to hear their lectures and their shit... I wished they let me go. 

I'm tired of never being enough.. I'm tired. There's nth more to say other than I'm tired of life. Honestly, though I wish to see through my entire life or at least half of my life, I still feel useless being alive. I'm tired!!!!!!! Hais. I'm sick of constantly having to think of others and giving in to others and yet it's still not enough. Nothing I ever do is ever enough. 

Ah sigh I miss dancing.