Dear Shanette Congratulations! Your application to study the Bachelor of Psychological Science Program at JCU Singapore has been successful.

To see this appear in my inbox the moment I wake up yesterday morning was a god damn relief. My whole january has been living in fear of how my life will turn out in 2016. Pretty damn tired of not doing everyday at home, having weird ass dreams that makes me scared of how my future days will turn out. MEH It's over. Right now my next step is to get a part time job. Best if Lola accepts me in.  That'll be like the best job ever because its just freaking outside my house HAHAHAH

Liqian's gonna be my roommate for the next week. And I've been enjoying her company since~ Have been talking for 3-4 hours straight about life with her yesterday and it just reminded me how lucky I am to have found an awesome friend like her. I do not need to fear that she judges me for anything. I do not need to filter anything. LITERALLY ANYTHING. We were totally reminiscing our 2014 rebellious days and what stupid choices we made in the past. The thing about us is, we can differentiate whats right and whats wrong. We just decided to be rebellious only because we wanted to, not because we are the kind of people we used to portray ourselves as. I'm so happy to have grown up with her. Seeing all my close friends grow up together it makes me so happy and blissful. I was looking back at how we were in Secondary school and how we are now. Liqian has always been the miracle of our clique and probably still is.

To know that her family background is so not good at all and she's doing so well in her life makes me feel so proud and happy for her. All her setbacks she deal with it herself. It's just so rare to find someone that's so amazing really. I love that she's the kind of friend that lingers around even when we don't talk for a few weeks. I LOVE YOU MS LOW

I miss Mr ong. I can't wait for next week to pass. Just hoping maybe just maybe Feb will be a less busy month. I don't know I hope we can work something out so there's more time for each other. Oh wells learning to be contented that at least this week is way better than last week. Still am pretty shaky but it's working out. A short one day with him this coming weekend. Wonder how I dealt with it everytime. I think it gets harder each time because I just get more attached to him in a sense?

Right now, just trying to remember the good times together to get me through the week.

Not feeling so good right now because I just hate this house. I just hate the vibes this house gives me. Sucks. Suckkkkkkkssssssss. Gotta survive through just one more month then I'll have angbao money and allowance. I wanna see 4 digits again in my account sobs this is pretty damn depressing but ohwells. Just ohwells

I miss you.