My eyelids and my side mouth seems to have some sort of an allergic reaction that I have no clue about. Skin so dry put so much lotion also no use meh..... 

It's been such a sad week oh my god it's over it's overrrrrrr. I thought I was sad alone. Turns out to be wrong. I knew it I knew I couldn't possible just feel so distant out of nowhere. Suddenly I just feel like he's so far away. It's impossible to suddenly feel like that. 

I can't explain the scariness of the thought that everything became back to square 1. In just a span of 2 days i felt like everything went back to square 1. Hais so hurting how.. I don't geddit I know he doesn't mean it but how come he can say it out when he's angry. It means he has definitely thought about it and when he's angry he vents it out.. 

Am I such a bad girlfriend 

Am I so annoying that he's getting so frustrated with me 

Should I not care....? :( 

I got chased out of the house on Friday 

I was asked to leave him alone for the next few weeks.... 

He really said he was feeling super 不耐烦 already and asked me to stop talking 

He said I act kelian and all 

Oh my god sobs I can't get this shit outta my head.. Suddenly feel the need to filter things I want to say to him all over again 😭 If I say none of that hurt it'd be a lie 

All the more I miss my last 2 weeks with him.. It wasn't perfect but I knew if we had a short argument things will still turn out fine.. How come now I'm back to being afraid of what's gonna come next.. :'( Sobs I shouldn't dwell on it but... Please can something good happen :'(