Meh i'm so annoyed right now. I'm doing my essay halfway but I feel like I'm already judged without even attempting to write finish my beginning. It's so frustrating because I really HATE talking about my essay. To me it's just to freaking get it over and done with. I'm fucking damn individual I can't stand people probing into my affairs unless you're here to help. It gets so frustrating to always have to pretend to be smart, act smart when I'm totally not. And telling the classmates like "Fuck it I just want to pass Omg pls i'm not that smart can you leave me alone" is just gonna give such a bad image of me even though I AM REALLY LIKE THAT. Can't stand it. I literally need to bang myself on the wall I need some peace from them and their nonsensical stress.

AS IF I don't have enough stress on my own. Every little thing also must stress. This is why I hate cliques in school. I freaking wanna be alone. I swear the people overwhelm me so much. I hate to be around people that I can't be myself with. Makes me so hella uncomfortable. And I really hate noisy people so much. It's like wth I never even asked to be with them. Argh I want my baby right now I'm so irritated with assignments, irritated with CHILDISH NOISY PEOPLE in school omg. WANT TO BE ALONE. OR WANT TO BE ALONE WITH MY BABY. Meh feeling so shitty