I feel so upset this so called "staycay" has been such shit. It's as if I'm here on the staycay myself. He spends more time on his phone.  He wants to stay in the hotel i have no problems with that because the main point was to spend time together. or spend time with his phone. I feel so distant and i feel like i'm forcing him to spend time with me by seeking his attention. When i ask to go somewhere, it also feels like i'm forcing him and he feels obliged to go. So pointless.... It's not a waste of money and time if we were genuinely embracing the time together.. But no. I think I get more time with him at his place than this cursed hotel. Thoroughly upset. Not even cause of the case that's bothering him. Cuz it's already been like that since the beginning of this stay.. So pointless. Glad today's the last day. What's time point of meeting if my presence is constantly being taken for granted of. Feeling really so shit and i have no one to tell but to resort to talking to my blog.

This december is not what i pictured it to be.. What was i expecting anyway. A staycay is supposedly for two people who didn't have time for each other to concentrate on each other... Wnats so important on the phone that he is almost 247 on? Sad.