I miss the days when no one knew about us. It was a mistake to let Liqian know about us. It was a mistake to let her go Taipei with us. Everything that we tried to fix, everything just went back to square 1. It sucks not having anyone to confide in. But it sucks even more when you try so hard to let people close to you see the good side of things but end up just seeing every bad side of it. All because of one stupid move, our cover has been blown. I'm so tired yet again. I hate people who go against me. I hate to know that people don't support me. If that's the case I'd rather cut off all ties.

You once told me that you'd prove to be a better person in front of them to let them accept you. Instead because of something so minor just because of that everything is now in a shitty position. To you its easy because none of them are close to you. But for me I'm always the middle person. I'm always the person that they feel i'm doing something wrong. Ask me why I'm always disappointed. I'm always disappointed because you're not doing the things you promised you'd do. & Instead of trying even harder, most times you just give up like its no longer worth it.

I'm torn right now. I just feel like I'm no longer worth it to you tbh. At random times I just feel no matter how much I say to you or nag, you yourself have no desire to change at all. Sobs. God tell me what to do.