I miss everything.. 

I miss knowing that it was a for-sure that I'd see you during the weekends.. I miss knowing that I can be open with my feelings to you.. I miss knowing that you'd try for our relationship.. I miss knowing that I'm loved by someone.. I miss all the times we had together and I just can't believe it has ended.. I'm so fucking sad everyday. As if you leaving me would make shit any better. We're currently just in fucking deep waters drowning ourselves.. It's so torturing.. 

What the fuck happened.. I'm sad to know that we will never get back together.. Because even if we ever did, things will be so fucking different.. How am I supposed to open my heart after everything you've done to hurt me.. The one and only person I thought would never break my heart this bad.. & you did.. 

Everything's changed.. & I can never get it back no matter how hard I try.. You can never love me the way you used to anymore..