I have no one else to talk about this... I’m just blogging and blogging and blogging hoping to get all my feelings out but I just don’t know how to get better 😢 I’m not living in a drama but why is my love life so dramatic 😢 It’s so painful and I’m so scared... I really hate people leaving my life.. If he cheated and had a reason to leave, I’d just let it go.. But now it’s just... He loves me but he wants me to go? He wants to be alone but he can meet up with his friends..? What is it about me that he doesn’t like and doesn’t wanna see? I want to be understanding but how is this any fair to me? Do you know how fucking understanding I already am.. Why can’t you just love me 😭😭😭😭 All i fucking need is your FUCKING love and NOTHING ELSE

Just maybe 1.5 weeks ago you still called me your girl 😭 Baby i fucking miss you a lot I really fucking can’t stop crying... Do you know how much I fucking miss your fucking hugs..... How much I fucking miss your forehead kisses 😭😭😭😭😭😭 I’m so fucking in pain 😭 I fucking don’t want to move on... Why can’t you just come back to me 😭 Why!!!!! Why don’t I deserve a better answer other than an answer that’s so fucking vague 😭

我真的很痛。在这世界上只有你那么爱我... 现在连你都不要我.. 我真的不懂该怎么办我真的很想你.. I really miss you until I just can’t breathe anymore.. I’m suffocated by my own tears by my own pain... It’s so fucking unbearable all I fucking need is just to see you.. Even if it’s for fucking 10min.. 

I’m in so much fucking pain 😭😭😭😭😭😭