I think my mood fluctuates alot recently and I think mostly its due to the work stress. I barely even started. I've been fighting against everyone else because I cannot deal with the negative emotions or just any slight doubt that people give to me. The point people don't understand is that I myself doubted this industry and I have not started yet to know whether it will even work out.

I'm just sad to know that I have no friends. It is suddenly amplified x10000 because of how I need relations for it to work. I'm sad to know that I really have no support at all. Words don't bring rice to my bowl. Comfort don't really bring rice to my bowl either.. :'(

Just feel like something's wrong with me. As long as there's me, it's like nothing ever works out.