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WASSUP DARLINGS....?!?!?!

I'm finally back. Ok i wasn't gone for THAT long but yeah. I'm just lazy :( I got nothing much to say about my life recently. I'm lazy to go out, lazy to ask anyone out, lazy to do anything at all. I'm in the fuck-i'm-so-fat-and-ugly-i-should-just-stay-home-and-rot kinda mood this whole week... Hahaha. So yeah honestly i got nothing to say...!!!!

Actually i do. About me being a fucking love doctor. In my opinion, i give people advice like i'm some experienced piece of shit when all i've ever gone through was one pathetic 3 month relationship with a sucker whom i actually thought i loved. THATS ALL? I wonder how i actually know so much. I think i watched too much shows and i can't exactly figure out what's fantasy and what's reality. Seriously, i sometimes get a shock at how reality has became throughout the years. Everybody's getting too open minded. Girls are losing their self worth. Guys are just fucking around like they are some big shot. 

Ah i don't know what to say. I'm lazy to plan out this blog post. This is just gonna be very random. I'm just gonna say whatever i feel like saying out. 

So i don't know if i'm working tomorrow. On Monday night, Kel told me i was unneeded on mondays considering the fact that the sales on Mondays are getting lower and there's Chris and Xuejun to help out already. But on Thursday, when me and Kel were on the train, he told me to come in in the morning. I was actually waiting for his text today cuz he'd usually tell me the schedule on Sundays. BUT HE DIDN'T!!! So i'm currently panicking. I don't wanna text him. I don't wanna know if i'm going to work anot. A part of me wishes he'd tell me to go because it means i'm gonna have some quality time with.......................... Another part of me just wants to stay home because whatever that i'm thinking in my head is gonna lead me to nowhere. Like seriously fml. What the shit is wrong with me. This has been really bothering me the whole day and there is no one that i can think of to tell this to. 

Went for a swim in the evening. THERE WAS SUN!!!!! My enemy. I hope i didn't get tanner. Really i think i'm tan enough. I hate to be tan/dark/BLACK. That's why i always choose to swim at night. I used to be so bloody black....... When i look at my past photos i'm just that dark piece of shit in the photo. It's so easy to spot me. Among all my fair skinned friends, i'm the only one who looks so dark. -_- Well i used to swim every week last time when i was young. At timings where the sun is extremely hot. So that kinda explains my dark skin. I get laughed at sometimes because i've got tanned lines. Major extreme tan lines. Argh. Today's just special case because instead of going to the usual climbing activity at Bukit Timah, father decided to relax a little in the pool. So he was the one who chose the timing.  

Had fishball noodles for dinner. Just checked my weight last night. Yup i've gained back the weight that i've lost. Hahahaha I DONT CARE ANYMORE. Ok i do but no matter what i'll still stay around this weight. Like it just keeps going up and down. I'll just TRY MY BLOOODY BEST to not eat during working hours and just sin the fuck away during weekends. Hahaa. Actually i dont know. I've been working out too. So i must have gained some muscles too right? And muscles is heavier than fats.... So yeah must be because of that too.... LOL -lives in self delusion again-

Really can't wait for 2NE1's comeback.... I'm dying already, seeing their comeback hints.