Sigh

I've been depressed during the past 2 ballet lessons. Sigh i don't know what's up with Elizabeth this week. She is seriously picking on me more than the usual. Everytime i try so hard, she never says anything. Everytime i never do properly, she will definitely say something. Can't she just give me some encouraging words? She has seriously praised all the non-ballet background students before except me. SHE HAS NEVER BLOODY SAID ANYTHING ENCOURAGING TO ME AT ALL.

Viewpoints was kinda interesting yesterday. We were released 15minutes earlier. Hip hip hooray! Miss Susan was like injured so Albert took over her class. He is damn well known in Lasalle for being the scariest teacher. All of us were like freaking out like mad. Some of the seniors knew we were having him as our teacher for the week and even told us TIPS on how to not piss him off. He's just seriously THAT scary. Before class, the seniors tried to like put him in a good mood so he'll not be harsh on us. Awww HAHA! Everytime i get his steps wrong, he'll notice me and i'll shiver like shit, praying he'll not scream at me. He did shout at some of the students. & apparently it was not as scary as we all expected. He did worse things to the seniors before. We hardly even said a word in his class. The only time we were noisy was when we were practicing and figuring out the exercise for the other side. Other than that the whole room was just filled with Albert's voice. We killed many people with his ultimate force on stretching before he ended the class. He made us do a front split, and bend forward. Then he went to everyone of us and pressed us flat to the ground. Seriously with ALOT of force. My heart felt so pain for the 2 guys in my class. Especially Edem!!!!! Albert went to stretch him TWICE! & obviously he's not flexible at all. Sigh scary man.

Performance project was as usual, BORING. Slacked around. After class, we kinda sang Issac a birthday song. It was his birthday and this other girl, Suharti's birthday. There were 2 cakes placed side by side. Ok Issac's one were like 12 cup cakes. & Suharti's cake is a choc cake. Bid goodbye to most of the performance people. Then Cher Andrea and I went for dinner. Talked alot at Mac. Reached home before 11.

Today's ballet lesson was the most depressing one ever. She finally said it. She finally said I was at risk, that i might be kicked out by the end of year 1. She seriously never see any good in me. SERIOUSLY. I try sooooo fucking hard to gain ONE compliment from her but she just doesnt say anything. After she told the class i was 1 of them at risk of being kicked out, i totally had no fucking mood to do ballet. Tears were like almost dropping out but I HAVE NO IDEA HOW I MANAGED TO SQUEEZE IT BACK IN. I think i've been getting better at keeping back tears ever since I came Lasalle.

Hip hop lesson was next. Worse shit ever. She made us do the choreography she taught us weeks back. Then she wasn't happy with it. So she suddenly made us do 6 steps across the floor again. She made us do FRONT ROLLS. You have no idea how much i hate rolls. NO IDEA. I was so scared i might break my neck. I still did it though. Everyone could do it so if i was the only one panicking and shrieking over a stupid roll, i might look super stupid. Then cartwheels. WHAT THE HELL the last time i did cartwheels before today was like REALLY 9 YEARS AGO. Sigh . . . But the class got a little better after that and then she got angry again. She told us she failed all of our hiphop graded "exam". Lol wtf really? -_- Argh. Andrea sent me a super long message again during hiphop lesson cuz she knew i was upset. I literally dropped tears and went like "Aiyo this girl ah" to myself lol. I'm such a weakling no i shall not cry anymore. Sobbing or crying or tearing is not allowed.

Bathed, bought lunch and went for art history. Almost fell asleep during the 2nd presentation. But Dayal was like 2 seats away from me. I was afraid he'd catch me sleeping so i tried to keep myself awake. It was break after that. When me and Jingwen went to the toilet, we saw Shafiq coming out of the toilet. He walked pass us and acted like a child "May i know where's class 5D????" He kept repeating that sentence and both of us didnt get what he was saying. When we went back, he said "Y'all so bad you make my son lost." Andrea and Jingwen couldnt get what he was trying to say but i got it immediately. Then he looked at me, shocked and asked me "Did you actually got something right?!" DAHELLLLLL i'm seriously a lost kid in his eyes.

Performance project today was SLACKY TO THE MAX.... I heard singers sing, i saw dancers dance, i enjoyed the super awesome cold wind. Afiq Shafiq Priscilla Fattulah Andrea and I did the rolling thingy again. Sigh i got laughed at again. I could only do it that day man!!! After that i couldnt roll smoothly again. Suddenly Priscilla asked Shafiq to sing to her. Issac came and told him to sing his awesome christmas song. I said i wanted to hear too cuz yeah i really love to hear him sing~ "You hear before already right!" I'm like "Er what song???" Then he said some christmas title! I told him i can't remember and he said "Aiya you! Forever lost one okok" LOL OK OK OK I'M LOST.  So he sang to us and it was brilliant sigh :') Priscilla then took his phone and started taking photos. Her photo skills very bad. So i took another one. Then she said "eh you two take photo!" I thought she was really taking photo of us.... BUT NO SHE WAS PRANKING US. She took one with my face zoomed, and the other with Shafiq's face zoomed. Oh my god he was very smart. He already knew she was zooming. At first we were at a normal sitting position. After the first shot, he kept pushing me closer because HE KNEW SHE WAS ZOOMING. I think that's why my face on that zoomed photo looks damn ALIENIZED. Bleh Priscilla ah priscilla.... After that i got laughed at for the photo.

It was Shawn's birthday. The performers made him think that everybody didnt knew his birthday and gave him a surprise. He almost cried ohmygod LOL!! Bid all of them goodbye and i told Shafiq to upload the photo that i took with his phone. He teased me and said he'll post the one with my zoomed face. Sigh he teased me for soooooooo long. & then Jingwen Priscilla and Andrea just kept laughing and laughing like there's no tomorrow. When we were about to go off, Shafiq switched on his phone and realised his dp was the zoomed face and when we unlocked his phone, it's his zoomed face. Oh my god what is Priscilla doing. Laughed like shit again and teased me like shit again and we went separate ways.

Went gongcha and wow! We saw both of the fiqs walking out of Lasalle. So we went dinner together. This Shafiq can't stop disturbing me . . . After hanging out with them for quite some time, his true colours and funny patterns all revealing already. HAHA Fine he's cute so i forgive him. I rather he disturb than to not talk at all right? Haha. They went off first cuz they need to go find Edwin and co. to watch Edwin's movie. We went off shortly after they left.

I'm not looking forward to tomorrow's hiphop lesson. She's so gonna go mad. Sigh i'm tired. Goodnight