All in my head

Don't really know how to explain how I'm feeling right now. It just sucks to feel like you're second or third or fourth in somebody's heart when they are almost first place in mine. I can choose not to think about it but what can i do if my brain tells me to? I can also choose to think it in a positive way. I gotta learn how to be contented. Ok ok let's just skip to the happy side of my day and leave this aside.

So we had normal classes for the whole day. Got lectured by Dayal cuz of our horrible Anatomy results. As expected..... I knew most of us would do the test badly.. Almost fell asleep during dance history... Sigh why does this teacher always talk so much nonsense that's not even related to dance history? PP was very slack cuz they were all setting up the technical stuff. We ran through the whole show twice at night. Omg my knees are filled with abrasions and bruises... Super painful. The first run was not bad to me, but the second run was the best run EVER!!!! We had the Dip 2 performance students as our audience. Their reactions to our show was the most unexpected thing EVERRRRR!!!! Though i don't really have super big parts in the show but i felt proud of the show because of their reactions. They made us felt like it's a really good show.

I'm almost done with my Asian dance journal... I really didn't know today's the last day of asian dance class for this semester. So we were supposed to submit our journals today. But those who didn't know, Gigi told us to email it to her. So yeah i'm rushing through my journal entries but i'm still left with 4. I got interupted by Andrea's call and i stopped doing it. So I'll probably just submit it tomorrow. I'm sure Gigi doesn't mind.... ><

I still have yet to pack my "luggage" for my 3days 2nights stay in school. Yepppppp we'll be staying in school cuz we're freaking ending at 11pm for the next few days and we still got school as per normal as every other day. Except our first classes for Thursday and Friday are cancelled. Doesn't make an extremely big difference anyway.... Plus we don't live very near to school. Boohoo I'm excited and not excited too. I'm excited cuz the fiqs will be staying over too~ We can watch movie and then fall asleep and leave Afiq by himself again~~~ HAHAH just kidding~ But I'm afraid i'll freeze for the next 2 days argh... I can't possibly bring my blanket/bolster to school right? Boohoo :( I have a freaking strong feeling i will, thinking about the previous time just makes me feel cold.

DID I MENTION HOW THESE KUKUBIRDS ARE SUCH VAMPIRES???? They bite me like it doesn't hurt at all!!! Jingwen and Shafiq especially!!! Deadly bites!!!! Oh well Andrea once told me she only bites people she love so i assume that's the reason for the both of them too so i'm okay with it~~ The more bites, the more love~ LOL WTH SO ABNORMAL ARGH. Ever since i entered Lasalle ah..... All kinds of skinship also have. I even learnt how to differentiate the different kinds of hugs people give. I love Jingwen's hugs the most. I always wanna tell her that but i'd forget. Since now i'm on this topic, i might as well say it~ IT'S ALWAYS SO TIGHT AND WARM AND SINCERE!!!!! <3 Then i started to judge on the kind of hugs people give and see how important i am to them based on the hugs they gave me. HAHAHA I'M SO CHILDISH AND I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M ADMITTING THIS ON MY BLOG BUT...... I did got upset once before when i realised how this particular person hugged me soooo loosely as if hugging somone was a chore.... Hehehe I'm so childish i'm so sorry~~~ :B

Ok goodnight goodnight i need to freaking pack my bag!!!!! Its almost 2 in the morning!!!!