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I spent my whole Sunday doing my dance history essay, which my teacher have decided to extend the dateline because some people in my class went to tell him they had no time to do it or whatever nonsense. It's annoying. The excuses people give.. It's unfair. People sacrifice their time to do it because we're rushing for the dateline. & these lazy people, just decide to not do it and hope for a miracle to happen, which luckily for them, happened. Oh my god.

 

Monday went quite well, until mask work. Didn't perform well for mask work. Oh well... After that we met Dayal at the frass. He told us our Anatomy marks one by one privately and I didn't dare to go to him when it was my turn cuz I was afraid of my marks. BUT..... Turns out i got 55 marks. HEY THAT'S A FREAKING PASS. (FYI: Anything above 40 marks is a pass in Lasalle. WEIRD I KNOW.) I mean for Anatomy (Bio related) and me studying only 1 day before the test.... I thought I did quite well. LOL. I expected myself to really flunk it. Like get probably 30 marks out of 100. Ok then again..... 55 is not a good score and in Dayal's record, 60 is the passing mark.

 

Then we had this Post Production talk after that. Harris was bullshitting all the way. Totally wasted 2 hours of my time. We were doing this feedback thing so everybody was telling Harris how they felt about this production that we've just finished. Honestly, out of everyone of them who spoke up, 3/4 of them said the same god damn thing. I sat there listening to crap and kept thinking how much time is wasted on this shit. Argh. After that, i went out to study for Anatomy. Jingwen went home, Shafiq and Afiq started doing their Art History presentation.

 

Studied till 10 and went home. Tension was in the air and i was in a very awkward position.

 

Was 10minutes late for ballet class. We reached there and didn't see Jingwen anywhere. Andrea: "Are my eyes playing tricks on me or is Jingwen not here?" I thought she was kidding but i still scanned through the room and realised she was really not here. HOW SHOCKING. Hahaha.

 

Had tutorial class with Melissa at the frass today and she wasted our time again. Omg it was already out lunch break and she didn't even tell us when we were released. She kept going on and on about Anatomy and nothing was really going into my head because i was very hungry. All i could think of was food! All these teachers.... They are the reason why i miss my school bell so much. No time management.

 

Had lunch at 15minutes and went to block F level 2 to study. The anatomy paper was almost exactly the same!!! The questions didn't change at all. I can definitely score an acceptable mark this time!!! Dance history was our last lesson. John Meed is another teacher that freaking looooooves to drag our lesson. LASALLE IT'S TIME YOU PUT SCHOOL BELLS!!!!!!

 

Stayed back in school till 9pm even though class ended at 3.30pm.. Haha Shafiq was doing his Art History and the both of us had nothing to do so we walked around Bugis+ and Bugis in circles. Bought Taimei and headed back to school. Fell asleep. I even dreamt. But i woke up because my legs and arms were having pins and needles. Horrible feeling to get while you're sleeping... Tried getting back to sleep but i couldn't. The area was tooooo hot and humid. LASALLE NEEDS TO INSTALL MORE FANS OR AIRCONS AROUND!!!!! Nyahahaha I'm complaining so much :B

 

So i've been thinking through about the most random stuff ever and...... I realised my head knows alot without even people telling me. When people tell me things, it's more like a confirmation for the information that I already have in my head. I doubt my own thoughts, that's why i seldom tell people what i think, because I might be wrong even though 70% of the time I think i'm right. HAHA contradicting but it's true!!! I kinda feel sick of telling people "I KNEW IT!!!!!" everytime they tell me something. I feel like it's starting to be a very expected answer from me. BUT WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY!!!! I REALLY KNEW IT HAHAHA. I can't be shocked at some "news" people tell me because i already saw it coming somehow. Makes me laugh everytime my thoughts were actually right. It's so freaky yet so amazing. I really don't know how this happens. My 6th sense is very strong i guess. NYAHAHA~~~

 

To end of this post, I would like to dedicate a short paragraph to all those people in the world that gets demoralised easily:

 

I am a girl who gets demoralised very easily. I am not a good dancer. I don't have any talents to show off. I don't really do well academically either. I'm not blessed with a pretty face or a sexy body. Overall I'm just a very typical common teenager who's living my life from day to day. People may say you suck at this, you suck at that or even worse, compare you with someone else. Then you get upset and mull over it throughout the night. Think about it.... What do you get from feeling depressed for the whole night? Pimples.... Wrinkles..... Eyebags.... Maybe even swollen eyes if you're the crybaby type. I am not saying you can't be sad over such things. Everybody has those times.. But you can't let these emotions overtake you. Cry it out, and move on. If eating makes you happier, EAT. If sleeping makes you happier, SLEEP. Do something that makes you happy after you've done mulling over the issue. Think of how you can solve it instead. If you think you're gonna fail this upcoming test that you're gonna have, keep rereading the notes given until you even dream about the test in your sleep. If you know you're gonna forget this one dance step during performance day, practice until you can dance the whole routine from the back to front!!! I know it's hard. I KNOW. People who know me knows I've gone through millions of demoralizing moments. But everybody deserves to be happy. Remember that.