Lazy

Hello~ Yesterday was fun actually~ I thought my energy for the whole thing was fabulous, until i made an extremely obvious mistake. Everybody was supposed to be still but i moved. What. The. Shit. BUT! BUT!!!!!! My extremely wide smile didnt disappear and i went back to the correct position. So.... I hope the crowd forgives me :(

It ended quite fast~ Walked around aimlessly wasted time and stuff then went home. Just before me and Andrea reached Serangoon, we talked about supportive parents and stuff like that which made me pretty upset. Just thinking of how both my parents are so supportive of my brother's fish business and can't even care less about me makes me wanna cry. I always wanna go up and give them a super tight hug. But they always give me the feel like with or without my presence, it's the same. Everytime I'm upset or demoralised, the first person I think of is my mother. Does she know? Regardless of how cold her replies are, regardless of how much I dislike her replies, I still wanna tell her what's going on in my life. She's the only person that I can tolerate "K" replies and no-emotion replies. If you know me well enough you know how much i fucking hate people who type like they hate talking to me. Like I'm a pest who can't stop texting them.

I try though. I try to not think of it this way. I think of how my dad always sends me to the mrt every morning, how they try to fetch me back from the mrt every night. How they give me allowance everyday. How they even allow me to go to an arts institution and pay for my school fees. I mean they can choose to just throw me aside and let me survive right? They didn't. So i guess i should feel contented enough. I try.

Bought Hershey's chocolates last night. Yeah i said in the beginning of the year no more chocolates. But you know that's never gonna happen right... I guess once in a while is okay... I really miss eating chocolates so much.

Woke up this morning and had lunch. Played around with the new apple tv and the new large screen smart tv my parents bought. So fun~~~~ Y'all know what's a appletv right? It's this small device that you plug into your tv and you can connect your apple gadgets then it'll show on your big screen. Super HD i was just watching everything in HD. So shiok~

Today is stoning day. I really don't feel like doing anything not even art history. I didn't even wanna blog but I can't survive without writing nonsense. So yeah I'm here.

I can't tolerate people who think that I'm stupid enough to fall for their tricks or lies or whatever crap. No matter how smart you think you are, I still can see through you. Me not saying anything doesn't mean I know nothing. Just saying.

Alright I'm gonna continue stoning. Goodbye.