I went to school an hour earlier and had breakfast. Warmed up and waited for the other mates to come. Well Mycs was an hour late. So our senior, Liyana took over the class. She made me feel like i was preparing for syf lol. K whatever I just sucked it up and do as told. When mycs arrived, she blocked us for the ending. Then we were divided into 2 groups, 1 doing Beyonce dance and another doing a Janet Jackson dance. I'm in the beyonce dance woohoo~ Me and Jingwen already knew the dance because we went to Mycs' class the other day. Bleh she had to tell our seniors that we knew the dance... Hmmm well pressure much? Ah but the seniors kept asking for Jingwen's help so.....
Jingwen had to leave halfway cuz she had some ballet class going on so I ended up leading. Ah but they also never ask me anything much so yeah. I really think there's something about me that repels people away. Yeah I was kinda offended in a way. I don't even know how I'm supposed to put this la but yeah whatever it is, it added on to my already bad mood. lol
People never ever include me in any outings or parties or whatever nonsense and I don't understand why. Argh fuck I'm like typing and back spacing. You know what I'm so pissed off in everyway you can ever think of. Especially towards someone but I just don't know how to say it out. So mad so pissed I'm about to explode right at your face but I'm just gonna hold it in cuz it doesn't matter anyway. Today was one good example of how even if I die no one will ever check up on me.
I sometimes wish you can stand in someone else's position and see yourself. Only then you'll know what kind of a person you are and you're not that great at all.
My menses is probably coming. I'm just gonna use that as an excuse for my horrible mood swing today. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. Goodnight
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