Where's the motivation?

I am in need of serious help. I really can't find any motivation for school and school officially starts next week. That means I can't don't go to school and can't go to school late like how I've been doing for the past week and few days. WHAT SHOULD I DO? Everyone has something they go to school for. For idk what reason I feel like I've lost it. The only consolation that I have for myself is that time passes really fast this year and in no time, December will come.

Man.... My rashes are back again. Why is it always this time of the year that I have horrible rashes??? It's making me so super duper uncomfortable and insecure. My face also just gotten worst as soon as school is starting. JUST LIKE LAST YEAR. What is wrong with this stupid body!?!?!? If only there was somebody in school that I look forward to seeing everyday. I swear that would probably help me so much lol. I know you must be thinking "Dafak you go to school to study or to look at people" GUYS you people go to school too DON'T TELL ME YOU DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL.

Had an extremely aswesome yet sad dream this morning. I have the best dreams ever man really. Made me think of my sad lifeless life. WHY I DON'T HAVE SUCH THINGS IN MY LIFE. Sometimes I feel like god knows that I'm never ever gonna have experience such sweetness in my life and is making me feel it in my dreams instead. NOT HELPING AT ALL. When will this person ever appear in my life. WHEN. This sadness when you just know you're gonna stay single for life. (Lol omg currently playing on my music library: BEAST's How to love) I swear ah not a good feeling ok. OK i know you're gonna say "YOU'RE STILL YOUNG THERE'S A LONG WAY TO GO" Oh yeah right. 10 years may seem long but IT'LL FLY PAST IN NO TIME. If y'all know clicknetwork you'll know they have this show called "It's a date". Yesterday's episode was the last one and one of the girls wasn't paired up with anyone. The Emcee said "You can't be lazy! You gotta continue searching and find! He can't possibly appear magically!" and she answered "BUT I WANT HIM TO APPEAR MAGICALLY...." Lol. 18 years of my life. Never been in a real relationship. Not even a single date. NEVER. Haha and ikr... For someone who hasnt really dated and shit I actually know so much.

BLEH SO SAD OKAY. Now back to motivation for school. YEAH DON'T KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO. NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO EVERYDAY. It makes me go so damn crazy you don't even know. I don't even know how i manage to drag myself to school everyday. I have been thinking how I pulled through school for the past year. Well Sem1 was probably Shafiq and Afiq since we hang out almost everyday and stuff. Then Sem2 was hip hop because yeah I enjoyed it so much.... Now? NOW WHAT? Bleh I don't know just keel me now there's school tomorrow.