Alright it's almost 2 in the morning and I don't seem to be very tired so I decided to blog.

Really extremely tired of school already. Now I know... 2 and a half months of school is the maximum that I can go without any injury. Right now my shin is killing me softly lol. I can't even wake up every morning. Sigh usually I'd wake up at like 7.20 to bathe and prepare and leave house at 7.55. Now I wake up at 7.30/7.40 and leave house at the same time. I rather look like shit and have like extra 5/10minutes to sleep. So tiring, school is tiring. I have so many work piled up waiting for me and all I do is procrastinate fuck my life.

Went to catch the awakenings today. I was late. Gosh missed the one and only piece that I was actually looking forward to. After the show, we went to eat Din Tai Fung. Then we headed back to Esplanade's concourse to slack and talk. Whatever we talk about ah, we'll always come back to talking about boys. So Luv was saying how it'd be so shocking if Jingwen or I were to ever have a boyfriend. And then we started talking about what kind of guys we were into. Andrea said I like the smart and charming ones. Yeah I do but..... I think that's only to eyecandy or to look from afar. Because they are so charming and smart, I'd probably just die of awkwardness to even talk to them gosh. From what I know of myself right now, I think if I ever have feelings for someone, everything else doesn't seem to matter anymore, even height. If you know me well you should know how bloody particular I am with height. I like it when I can be comfortable with the person I like. 

Then they all started talking about the kind of people they dated before. FUCK MY LIFE I'VE NEVER DATED IN MY LIFE. Why's my mom not worried for me?! I'm 18 and I haven't gone out on a date before and her daughter is just simply not attractive/charismatic enough T_T Argh this topic drives me nuts why can't guys I like, like me back!!!!! Why can't people I wanna talk to, TALK TO ME!!! WHY!!!!!! I always look at myself in the mirror and go like "AM I THAT BAD" lol I'm gonna stay single for life man sigh. I try to stay cool over this matter but it's driving me crazy can't stay cool no more. 

Alright I'm not sleepy but I think I should use more of my time to ask god for his forgiveness. Maybe I've sinned too much lol. ByeBye