Sigh dislike Bharata Natyam so much. It's not that I dislike the culture. I just dislike this teacher. She gave me a very bad impression of this art form. I can't even be bothered to try to get the teacher's attention because she already has her eyes on those few people. Like I know I can't really get the dance well. It's so painful in the shin especially when my shin is already injured. So i understand if she puts me at the back or something. But simple things like poses, she also totally disregard the people who can't really do the dance well. Like what the hell? Stupid shit. We have a performance next Monday and let me tell you we aren't even prepared. I don't feel like she's teaching us much. Makes me mad. I can't believe she came to our diploma show, telling some people that her reason for coming was to scout people to her company. & she would scout NONE because most of us aren't versatile. Bij please probably 3/4 of us wouldn't even wanna go to your company even if you've chosen us. Plus your company only focuses on one freaking genre. How the heck is that versatile damnit. If i have to write a review on this freaking bharata natyam it's definitely gonna be so negative that it reflects badly on this teacher. I'm just gonna get it done and over with.
I can't wait for the holidays to come. Just 1 more month plus I need to persevere. Wanna get out of this country so bad. It's so short la my holidays... Sigh 2 weeks to get out of singapore... Then its christmas week. & I have one week to go shopping until I cry. Then it's New year's and a new year begins. Time flies like mad fast.
Meh & i'm so scared as the years pass I'm gonna stay single and watch all my friends get attached. Sigh nooooo i really don't want. Why doesn't anyone have any slightest interest in me? No one wants to date me no one even bothers to try and know me. I am so da sad. Then there are those who says I'm picky and shit. GURL how can i be picky WHEN THERE'S NO ONE IN LINE. Are you freaking kidding me. & then there are those friends who can't stop asking about me and boys and shit. DUDE I'VE GOT NO STORIES TO TELL. Aint no guy in my life that's like 'AH HE'S MY ROMEO.' NONE. Oh well maybe there was BUT I aint his Juliet lol. Feeling so pathetic. I always feel like I'm one of those girls where god didn't plan an other half for me. Really man. For 18 years I never had a REAL relationship before. Real meaning I actually know my feelings for sure and I am old enough to know what is going on YA KNOW
& then here comes the topic of me always being the clingy friend. I hate the feeling of clinging to people. I hate the feeling of always texting someone first. I hate the feeling of asking people out (not like dating la, normal friends outing or whatnot). Hate hate hate hate HATE! FOR ONCE can someone cling onto me? For once can someone text me first? For freaking ONCE can someone ask me out?! I wanna party and have fun also cannot because no one ever puts me in their list of people they wanna hang out with. Argh.
Going all out with my feelings on my posts nowadays because no one ever listens to my pathetic stories anymore. So oh well I shall just rant it off and I'll be fine. Gah
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