Unluckiest week of my life

Wanna know why this week's the unluckiest week of my life?! So I injured my right shoulder during contemp on Tuesday. I am guessing it's old injury because I've injured it before during On The Edge rehearsals and I didn't went to check because Coach Ling was not in school. Wednesday was my contemp exam and I had to dance with that injured shoulder of mine. It was a horton workshop/assessment. Horton technique is very straight and used alot of the back and arms and alot of plies and shit. I re-injured my knee but it wasn't as serious as my shoulder. I was crying in pain internally I swear sobs. Went to see coach ling after my exam and he told me 2 of my cervical moved, so my ribcage moved too, and it was poking my idk what bone (sorry i suck at anatomy) and that was why my shoulders were hurting. He asked me why I didn't treat it the first time. Gah how the heck would I know that it's serious or not. I mean it went away went adrenaline hit me. Lol....

Jazz exam was today. I wanted to save my energy for jazz and make sure I don't injure my shoulder even more. So I told Peishan, my contempt teacher, I couldn't do class because my shoulders and knee were hurting. She ended up lecturing me about how I'm still physically fit and still am able to move. Fuck if I wasn't hurting I wouldn't even ask you if I could sit out of the class PLEASE. No matter how unmotivated I am I'll still do the class k. The fact that I actually came to school shows that I really wanna do class what. It's just that I really don't wanna over-exert my shoulder right -.- After scolding me she end up spending 3/4 of the class giving us feedback for our contemp assessment. Then there were 2 girls who was sick and injured. She compared me to the 2 girls. Fuck just because my pain tolerance is high and just because I don't over-drama doesn't mean I don't hurt as much as them. Bloody hell sia really. Do i really need to drama to survive in this world?!?!?!?! What the fucking fuck. So pissed.

My menses came today. I had menses cramp during anatomy, which was the lesson just before jazz. I thought it was some stomach issue so I tried to shit but nothing came out -.- Lol I'm a girl who doesn't know how to differentiate the different kinds of tummyache. Halfway through the exam, I fractured my left foot. I was practicing the choreography outside while waiting for my turn to be assessed. When i did a side leap jump (search it if you dk what i'm talking about), I landed on a sickle foot by accident and there was a super duper loud crack. I myself got a huge shock. But I didn't thought it'd be anything serious because the pain was only slowly building up. I tried doing the choreo but I really couldn't... Felt so hopeless at that point of time. I didn't wanna over react. I didn't know how pain was pain because my pain tolerance is quite high. So i just kept mum about it. Pris gave me the face like it was something very serious and everyone around me was just like "what happen what happen does it hurt". Idk what to answer. Of course it hurt. It was slowly swelling up (now it looks like a pig foot i'm not even kidding) and the more I rested the more painful it got. I didn't thought much about the cracking sound until Cher gave me the shock face when Pris said she heard that super loud crack sound. Cher fractured her foot before and I was so scared when they suspected I injured the same thing as her. I DONT WANNA REST FOR 6 MONTHS I WILL DIE. Sobs.....

Cher helped me tell coach ling about my feet and I was so touched when Coach Ling was worried about me :'( Sobs he really feels like a second father to me omg sobs T_T He gave Cher a sinseh's address, which is his friend and told me to go there immediately. I was hopping around like a heavy-ass rabbit and then I got a roller chair. Melissa and Cher and Amelia were like helping me out throughout everything.

When I reached the sinseh, I was so scared because I knew he was going to press it and all AND HE OBVIOUSLY DID. SOBS T_T!!!!!!! So pain like shit omg. Actually I think all he did was compress the injury but it hurt so bad I couldn't take it. He just wrapped my feet with the big medicated plaster and told me to go see xray and then bring it back to him tomorrow. I really hope it's nothing big. I REALLY PRAY.. NEXT WEEK IS FREAKING BALLET EXAM.

I'm so thankful to have classmates like Melissa Amelia and Cher who are so experienced in these kind of injuries... Without them I think I would've just ignored it (really lol).

Sigh I'm not jinxed right....? :'(

Ok enough of the unlucky shit. Now the happy stuff.

I finally got to spend time with Shafiq and Rif and Shawn on Tuesday!!! It really made my night really. Shawn was actually sleeping/resting. So it was actually only Shafiq and Rif. We were actually bonding and all... Out of the blue Shafiq decided to talk about me. This boy ah forever suddenly switch topic to me. I still remember there was this time.. He was telling me how sad he was blah blah blah and I was listening and trying to think of ways to make him feel better. Then all of a sudden he switched his subject to me and my low self esteem and negativity and all that sad shit. LOL... I was just like whaaaaat. Ok so yeah. He made alot of sense that day. Even though I look like I'm not listening to you or like not responding the way you want me to, I really am listening Shafiq!!! & I really am happy with how comfortable I am with you now. I don't hang out with you everyday but I feel this sense of comfort when I see you :) Like I see my brother or something you know.

I kinda felt like the conversation about me was going on a little bit too long. Like even though Rif was listening, he had nothing to say and idk what he was feeling and all. I personally don't like it when we're in a group of 3 and then 2 are talking, leaving 1 with nothing to say. So I didn't know if he was feeling left out anot so I tried to change topic.. Lol. But really thanks Shafiq. I really am grateful. I really don't know how to show my gratitude but just know I really feel your sincerity. (LOL NOT WRITING THIS BECAUSE I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS. I MEAN IT.) Happy to know that both of them are willing to lend a listening ear if I ever needed one.

Becky came at like 9plus and we went to Mcdonalds for dinner/supper. Haha. Went home after that and I really felt like WHEEEE. Been too long since we last hung out.

Alright now I'm just gonna rot at home sobs sobs. Feeling the pain right now boohoo