Out of Reach

"Morning" guys :)

I didn't sleep the whole night… I couldn't sleep the whole night :( So many thoughts all over the place. I was sleepy at around 6 because I had no one to talk to already. Everyone was sleeping and I was just there waiting for my iPhone game to load it's energy -_- Thats what people say what right… Go find some other things to do instead of just thinking about the thing that's bothering you. Yeah I've been dedicated to this game. It feels kinda like Pokemon but nothing beats Pokemon!!!! So i ended up sleeping for like an hour and woke up cuz I had to go and collect my passport. Came home at around 9ish and fell asleep till 2..

I decided to be more understanding rather than being such a nuisance. So this morning's good morning message was the last of it all, I told myself. LAST AH LAST. I mean if he wants to talk to me I will reply. If not then….. Oh wells. Of course I would want him to share his burden with his friends (or me) but….. (hopefully he does. it doesnt have to be me la sigh.) If I care and yet he pushes me away, there's nothing that I can do. Sigh just hope he feels better soon.

So random but….. I miss Afiq so much. I don't know I've been looking through my photos and he was there in so many of them last year.. Looking at him be that cute kangaroo for Mystica was just wowww. That was a year ago guys. A year ago…. How much things have changed. I am not exceptionally close to him like Andrea and Jingwen but I love how when he was happy he really made all of us felt so happy. I liked how he'd randomly ask where I was if I was missing… Days where we would go home together and then stress over dance together. Ya he's in performance but he stresses with me as well because he is a dancer!!! Talented friend ok :) I love it when I can only hear him and no one else screaming our names during performances. He is another guy that would be talking about his own problems and then suddenly switch his attention to me. Sighs… Maybe I don't mean as much as the rest to him but whatever la. I miss you Afiq!!!!!

Hope my December's gonna be better. A week more till I'm outta here. A part of me doesn't wanna leave because…… I don't know anymore lola. Wonder if anyone will miss me when I'm gone. Always thinking about that question. Just a part though. The rest of me can't wait to get out of here.