So it's the last day of the week. FINALLY. Coach Ling killed us during Wushu on the frass and Jazz kinda killed me too. I feel so proud of myself. I never even skipped ANY lesson at all this whole week. It's been one helluva tiring week. So damn tired of school. SO. TIRED.
Met Davin at night after school.. He was definitely the only person that made me happy in my entire week. Had dinner at some Peranakan restaurant. I really don't wanna know how much's the bill. I honestly felt bad for not sharing the bill oh my god... -_- Then wanted to catch a movie but the timings were all so cray. Either that or the movie we wanted to watch was not available. Went to Plaza sing, walked to cathay and then sat down for awhile to think of where we should go. No i didn't want to do anything. I just wanted to sit somewhere and chill. So we walked from plaza sing all the way to the singapore river area. Well there were lots of things on my mind and I couldn't clear my thoughts.
Me: One more photo! Funny face! Or any face!
Davin: -Smiles- I only can smile in photos. I don't know how to do other faces.
Me: Just try!
& so he did for a few photos but it was all so blur... OH WELLS.
We stayed there till midnight and yup. His presence just made me felt at ease. I don't know why. So even though there were times when we didn't say much, it still felt nice to know he was there. I don't know about him though hahahaa~~~
After that we went to try and hail a cab but failed terribly. For the first time ever I couldn't hail a god damn cab because there were NONE available. Every cab was hired. Out of every 20 cabs that passes by us, there'd be 1 green cab but THAT GREEN CAB WOULD BE A BITCH AND JUST DRIVE OFF. So mad. Then 147 came and I just decided to take it. Yay to living so near each other we have the same bus home. But stupid boy was stupid. He wanted to send me home even though he was so freaking tired. It was almost 1am. If I knew he had to wake up at 6am I swear I would've forced him to drop off at his stop.. Sigh feeling bad :(
Dad's definitely angry at me again. Argh for the past 2 weeks he has been like this oh my god can he not?!?! When he goes out late at night and was dead drunk the same night that I was out like 3 weeks back, he couldn't even say anything about me. Because he didn't have the rights to. At least I know how to stay sober and know where I'm going. If you want to worry about me it's better you learn how to control your alcohol intake first. Don't give me one whole bullshit talk about letting me do whatever I want when you know you will always be angry with me. You tell me it's okay if I tell you where I go and what I do. Oh please I always do and no matter what you'll still find fault with me. I don't even have anything to say anymore. Your body language never ever tallies with whatever you say. I don't like playing games k. If you don't mean what you say then too bad la cuz I'm just gonna listen to what you say and not what your body language is telling me.
Throughout the entire bus trip my mom was pissing me off too. Like sometimes I wish she could hear me out. Is it my fault that my "friends" bailed on me? Is it my fault that they are THAT trustable?! I told her how I was so annoyed with the people that bailed on my CNY's party tomorrow. All she said what "huh because of you I ordered more food. Because of you I changed the timing of the party. Because of you i told my friends i cannot go to the BBQ that is in the afternoon." WHAT THE HELL SERIOUSLY. I ASKED if you could change the timing of the party. I didn't say MUST change the timing. You said can without even saying anything about the BBQ. How the hell are you putting this on me now?! If you want to be the nice person then be nice all the way can you not just suddenly push all the blame to me?! You order more food nobody eat I EAT LA. Fat then fat la already fat what. Omg so annoyed. She always make me seem like the bad person. I hate this. So last minute I had to invite some other people otherwise this mama would just keep making a big fuss over such a small matter.
I'm sorry guys it just sucks to know that my parents are angry at me for the stupidest reasons and many times I wish they would just LET IT GO.
I'm so angsty the whole week I just wanna dig a hole and hide. Why's no one thinking about how I feel? Why is everyone just acting like my feelings are non existent? I hope things get better tomorrow. Yes it's 3.23am now and I'm so super duper sleepy yet I don't wanna sleep. I wanna wake up late tomorrow. I don't want to entertain my angry parents' nonsense. I'll wait till guests arrive then I start talking to them because they have no choice but to treat me nicely.
MEH whatevers!!! Positive energy positive energy hehe!!! Seeing my favourite girl tomorrow Jaijai. She's the best human being alive. I love her like nobody else.
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