He needs to get it and move the fuck on. Gosh I think I've never been so irritated by someone ever. I'm not interested in knowing you, not interested in your life, not interested to know how much you miss me, not interested at fucking all. I don't even care if you're desperate or if you're geniune I just don't. Because to me you're nothing. Right now I am being too nice and YOU STILL DONT GET IT. Gosh. This person made me understand how chemistry and feelings and attraction really matter. It just doesn't work okay it doesn't. It's not like I didn't try. 

So much work due. So little time left. 

All those random thoughts that comes into mind at random timings. All those random dreams. What's holding me back exactly? What's making me wait and wait and wait? I don't geddit!!!! Gosh I'm gonna kill myself for saying this but Friday's the last time I'm doing something. Yes really last time already. Then I'm giving myself till summer break. FINALLY A BREAK AGAIN. By then it should all be over. The saddest part of this whole bullshit is that it was a choice made by the one who got away. 

I wait and wait and wait and wait and wait. Thru this whole waiting process I met retarded people did retarded stuff and still am waiting. Nope I regret nothing. I honestly thought D could've been a nice friend to hold onto. I secretly wish I could bump into him like in afew months time and things would be normal. Or maybe even know him again. Lol don't know la fuck 

So much feelings for what shan you need to learn to be stone k.