So that person so conveniently said hi to me as if the letter didn't reach to him. I guess that already proves a lot. What the fuck am I doing sia I really don't understand SIAO LOL. I stooped too low. I think I just woke up. But I said this so many times already. Gosh...... :( But if I was so determined to do it just before I went to Europe last year, it means I can do it again. Lol what fuckery is this seriously. Eh you all win la I give up. Really last time already thanks la k thanks. I am gonna make it a point to make sure you don't affect me. I need to get the fuck out of this school. Pissing me off.

I need god to lead me to where I'm supposed to be. I really honestly want to study abroad. & I am highly considering it. But will I be able to let go everything here? There is nothing much for me to hold on actually. Everyone giving me so much pain and misery I can't even understand this shit. I'll probably only miss having my parents around when I feel alone. I'll probably cry for days and go crazy 2 weeks into living abroad though. Hmmmm :( I'm so messy right now. I don't even wanna say I need someone to confide in cuz I don't wanna listen to anyone at this moment right now. Need some peaceful time by myself or actually some quiet companion would be good. I just don't want to listen anymore. I'm so tired.

Yep I hope tomorrow rains again. I don't like the project that I'm doing now. I'm just not enjoying anything that I'm doing anymore. K like whatever I'm going to bed.