Almost the end

As expected, I was struggling during the contemporary exam... Sigh. I definitely tried my best. I know I did. But it was DEFINITELY not enough... I came out of the studio feeling so stoned because I used so much of my mental energy to remember all the unseen routines. Horrible. Didn't felt good the whole day. Super zoned out... Slept before Coach Ling's lesson.

Guys I'm really very proud of myself and my handstand oh my god. I was genuinely so happy when everyone cheered for me ohmygod sobs. That applause, I really felt like I achieved it and it felt so good... and I really never felt like this before. The look on Coach Ling's face.... IT WAS CRAZY okay that was such a good few seconds... I remember during the first year I cried in front of Mycs even though she was there to support because I was so scared. I really never expected myself to ever get rid of that fear. Cartwheel too... I only got it this year when I was forced to do Albert's exercise that had a cartwheel in it. Lol I'm sure no one expected that I would ever be able to do any of that shit. Cuz I couldn't too. I couldn't even do a proper back or front roll in year 1.

Okay so during coach ling's class while I was practicing my cartwheel, I suddenly heard someone call my name. So i looked around. The only reason why I looked around was because I really heard someone call my name okay! I turned and I saw him on the 4th floor bridge. The moment I turn he already started waving. My first thought was "Huh how is it possible that he called me? He never ever does that..... Plus he ignore me twice in a day ytd" Also how could I have heard it from so far?!! -_- Then I want to think of it as just a coincidence but again how can it be so coincidental?!?!?! Gosh and because of that I thought I saw wrong person. It was weird to see him in another coloured shirt other than red blue and black so I thought it wasn't him. Oh my god so in the end I never found out who was the one who called my name.

Feeling like the song Holy Grail right now.

And baby, it's amazing I'm in this maze with you

I just can't crack your code

One day you screaming you love me loud, the next day you're so cold

One day you here, one day you there, one day you care

You're so unfair

Meh

So it's Friday but it doesn't even feel like it. I can't wait to sleeeeeeep. Cuz I'm just that tired. No one can ever understand how this tired feels like kay. 1 more week..... HANG IN THERE SHANNNNN