Maybe.....

OLLA!

I've been having an extremely bad migraine since yesterday (till now) and I don't seem to know what's the cause of it. Of course today's a lot better. Hoho I guess spending with a good friend helps~

So I had my first Yfest rehearsal with XT today. GOSH intense much? I guess it's because I haven't been dancing hip hop for quite awhile now. I'm so rusty IT'S CRAZY. But you know what? I'm proud of myself! I could actually catch up the steps and perform (kinda..? not really). Plus XT's hip hop style is SO NOT MY STYLE. I am so not prepared to look like a kuku on stage. I'm kinda happy that I'm not exactly in the front but.... I'm kinda like in the middle for this so-not-my-style choreography and.... yeah god bless me. That spot kinda makes me want to improve so I really won't look like a kuku during performance day and at the same time, OF COURSE STRESS CUZ SYARIL IS RIGHT INFRONT OF ME WOOHOO not funny. We all know how powerful he is. l o l

Went for Kayte's class on Tuesday night and wow the choreography was so fast I was just like GAWD. So only like 4 people came for class. She hasn't been teaching cuz she's sick. So I guess people thought her class wasn't on. Out of the 4 people, only I could somehow catch the steps plus the timing.... But it was anyhow. I felt so damn stressed when it came to the hardest part and everyone just stopped and looked at me, because I was the only one who got it. They didn't even bother attempting to try it out. I got so annoyed because then Kayte was only staring at me and if I did it wrong it was just MEH. This stupid angmoh girl trying to be hip and all.... Pretending to be all pro and shit. Then she couldn't even remember the steps. So annoying because she was so proud when the class started. & when her body couldn't do a right torso roll, she asked Kayte if she could change it to the left side. GURL WHO YOU THINK YOU ARE, ASKIN THE CHOREOGRAPHER TO CHANGE HER CHOREOGRAPHY. Your body cannot geddit then practice until you geddit la! Kanasaiiii.

Okay spent the rest of my day with Becky today. Hahaha she made me laugh so much today I can't even. But yeah I'm happy she made my day. Of course I don't exactly seem assured about anything that's about to happen in the future... But... I don't know. Maybe, just maybe.... I'll stick around a little longer?..... WHAT AM I SAYING JKCNJKLSECMISLKM but yeah.

"Parallel lives are no different to parallel lines. They can never run perpendicular to each other. It violates the fundamental properties of geometry. Like the lines that extend towards the horizon, we will always be the same distance apart and never touching. As pragmatic and nonchalant this choice has forced me to become, you lived rent free in my head while I only had a fugacious claim to your heart. The trajectory of our paths has now returned to the direction of a lifetime of 'almosts'. Admittedly, I abscond this reality, and I find myself walking down memory lane because I like running into you there. 

Between you and I, I've imagined that our horizons still clutch at lightning speeds in spite of the 23 light year distance. Even now, I long for you to call me if our paths may collide again." 

& i mean it. The last sentence of the last paragraph. I really believe he will talk to me soon..... I really don't know where this is coming from but I really do believe that. I am not hoping for anything. I just feel it. But as always, it's just not the right time yet?

Goodnight.