& there i was thinking, "maybe you'd come around."

So I slept before 1am last night and I woke up at 9am this morning. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!?! Have been sleeping after 4am for the last 2 weeks and waking up after 2pm everyday. & yesterday it was just WOW. I just slept.

Went to school for the programme meeting and had awesome indian lunch with my friends. Then went to meet Becky for even more food. So I've revealed everything to her. Didn't really knew why I decided to say the whole story again. Definitely didn't made me feel any better. Because I know this time, for real nothing's gonna change and..... I don't really care anymore. Like honestly. I can't deal with people living with assumptions. I just can't. I'm sad but..... but nothing i guess.

I'm tired. & I still have to wait for a month more till I can get out of Singapore. Sigh to the pie.

"It all seems so simple, but it was definitely enough for me to value you as a special person in my life, too. You don't have to question my feelings over and over again because you know the answer. You knew it. Its just that today, we're not on the same boat anymore, and that's why it bothers you now. You recognise that special feeling because you also have it. You had it. Perhaps time isn't really on our side and maybe, just maybe, I didn't really have an impact on your everyday life like how you were able to affect mine. But I'm thankful that, even for a while, I became a part of your routine."