Finally the end of week 1.... It's crazy. I'm DEAD tired. Not even kidding sobs. I just had to blog today because..... I have to mark my date for my first ever lyrical jazz class!!

I'm really super loving Ryan's class. I can't believe he is going to choreograph a piece for us. I feel so honoured I can't even explain this happiness. I definitely have no technique whatsoever but watching Ryan dance alone is just.... pure amazement. I'm so in awe when he dances. Then he kinda talked to us about the kind of environment contemporary dancers are brought up in and all that. I SWEAR IT'S SO RELATABLE AND SO..... MY KIND OF THOUGHTS. Like I wished all teachers thinks like him. Obviously hinting to all the contemporary teachers in lasalle. AND I LOVE LYRICAL JAZZ/HIPHOP/CONTEMPORARY EVEN. The more lyrical the better and the nicer to watch lol. Obviously I can't do well but.... so beautiful. He did a piece on Colbie Caillat's Try. LIKE DUDE I can freaking relate to the song so well oh my god. This feeling when the choreographer choreographs to one of your most relatable songs. No technique also can dance ok LOL. Of course while I was replaying the video like crazy, I really can't stand how I have no extensions SOBS SHANETTE TAN.

I hated today's Welcome dinner performance. The video didn't looked that bad but.... it was a fucking bad performance. Omg 2nd time already. I hate this. I've disappointed this bloody piece FOR THE SECOND TIME. Like why. WHY!!!!! I'm so sad so mad I can't even. The whole night I was just feeling moody and shit and yeah just shit. Sigh why do i look so horrible doing XT's style.... I can't believe this. I don't even look nice doing the recital choreo. G O D. Even basic groove also can look like shit. Like what the hell making me crazy. What the hell hip hop was supposed to be like the class that I look forward to eh. Now why like..... making me stressed and all only. The moment he said "freestyle" for assessment I frozed ok. Fuck maybe I should drink some vodka before that. Confirm can freestyle like some pro LOL. Joke.

I'M SO TIRED. So many more weeks of school left jesus omg i need strength.