God sent

Monday, exactly a year ago.... Wow how things have changed. I'm so shocked at how time flew by seriously. I'm so glad I've let go, I've moved on and greater things have came in my life. I have sooooo much to write on my new years post this year. I feel like every year my new years post getting longer and longer. HAHA.

I'm really feeling so blissful. I'm so happy to be dating my man. This lovely man who just amazingly appeared in my life like this. It's really fate.. I don't know how to describe this feeling because it's scary and it scares me every single day. But I'm so happy that everyday I wake up you're still with me. & Everyday I just love you even more. The care bear that cares for me like there's no tomorrow. 

I'm still sad that we're both busy.... I'm sad that I can't spend Christmas with you. I'm even sadder I can't start my new year with you because you might not be able to book out. 

He makes me a better person in the oddest ways. I've learnt to stop clubbing. I've learnt to not go out so much. I've learnt to sleep earlier because he always asks me to and tells me its really bad that I always have insomniac problems.. I've learnt to start thinking how I should earn money because this man pays for everything everytime we go out. I understand he wants the best for me but baby it's crazy and I feel super duper bad. I don't want to think that I love him because he's always spending money on me. He told me a few times before "I don't want to go out with you when I have no money.." You don't understand. You don't need money to spend the day with me. Just appear in front of me. That'll do. Then yesterday night I came across this page on modern houses and it's renovation rates. One of the houses looked like my dream house like seriously. So I shared my thought with the man. He told me "Wah like that I need to earn more money already. Hahahaha" I replied "We'll earn together~~" & he said "But I don't want you to suffer too much.." Sobs I've really found him.. Though I'm seriously not used to taking all the time... I'm so used to giving and giving. Everytime in my head all I'm thinking if what I can offer to this lovely guy. What can I do to make him a happy man. 

I finally don't have to deal with boy issues... Those mind games. Those uncertainty. I've found a man who has goals in life, who knows what he wants and is aiming to achieve them in a span of a few years. I've found a man who stays even when he has all the right reasons to leave. Like me throwing random tantrums just because I don't know how to voice out my opinions sometimes. (I'm trying. A long way to go but I'm opening up.) I've found someone that sweet talks me like crazy and yet he also proves those words. 

Thank you for appearing in my life.