Time check.... Time freaking check: 4.41am

What the heck. I swear I was sleepy at about 11ish after my bath. But now i'm jet lagged as fuck.

So I just touched down this night at 9pm. We flew off at 9pm italian time on Monday and we're only back at 9pm. Technically I've been lacking off sleep for like more than 24hours already. & fuck I don't get why I'm still not sleeping.

I have mixed feelings about this trip. Firstly, I loved the weather. Of course.... I'm a polar bear how could i not right? But the bad side of it was I forgotten to bring my moisturiser. Yeah say I'm forgetful say I'm stupid whatever. So yeah my skin is in a really bad condition right now and I'm thinking it'd recover by Friday or so. Singapore's weather will melt me. Secondly, I hated the food over there. I swear to god European food are the WORST FOOD EVER. I've already tasted it last year and gave it another go this year... NO NO NO. Hate it. Thirdly, I've made a new friend. One of the youngest friends I've ever known..... LOL I'm very sure in my friends list I have no one that is born in the year of 2000. She has made my friend a fun one. Definitely doesn't act like a 14 year old. I feel a little too childish when I'm with her sometimes. Like WHUT. Lastly, I've had so many heart to heart talks with my mom and dad IT'S INSANE. Well even my brother.

I DON'T KNOW I'M FEELING SO MESSY RIGHT NOW. I'm so excited to show them my boyfriend and I'm so nervous at the same time. HE BE COMING MY HOUSE THIS FREAKING SUNDAY BITCHES THIS IS SOMETHING THAT HAS NEVER HAPPENED IN MY LIFE. ME? BOYFRIEND? MY HOUSE? MEET THE PARENTS???????? i'm going insane.

While walking about the mall at Switzerland on the last day of my trip, I keptttttt on asking my mom what kinda questions she's gonna ask him. Oh for your information, it was my mom who invited him over for christmas. OH YEAH THATS ANOTHER GOOD THING I GET TO KISS HIM UNDER THE MISTLETOE HOHOHO CHRISTMAS CAME EARLY :P Ok back to my mom. Yeah so she was like "What kind of questions do you want me to ask him?" I'm like what the heck which mom asks her daughter what kind of questions should she ask. LOL and she told me she's just gonna see how it goes and ask impromptu questions. NOT HELPING GURL.

So my parents have talked so much to me about the future and the scariest part of it all is that he and I have been on the same topic recently. Scary because I didn't even need to go to my parents for advice. They just came to me and bombarded me with a whole load of answers that I still kinda need time to digest... Sometimes I really think it's my fault. Like why can't shanette communicate well. I hate how my parents think I'm never ever independent like I have no clue about anything in the world. At the same time sometimes I feel like why the heck should I tell. I don't like the feeling of showing off. Or like "yeah whatever you said, i know already" so I just listen to them blabber anyway. The things they think I never think about, gurl I've thought soooooo much about it. Especially at times like this.

I really can't believe all of this is happening. I can't believe I suddenly have to think so much about my future. I can't believe it. I honestly thought I wouldn't settle down till I'm about 25 because I was so sure I wouldn't find anyone. I don't know whether to count myself lucky or not. After all this is my first relationship. I know it's still too bloody early to talk about the future but I honestly don't know what I'd do without him. To me I see him in my future. That's why I'm together with him. We plan things together and we want it to happen. 3, 4, 5 years... Still a long way to go.

I'm excited to see you again. I miss him so badly. :'( Another week and I'll be off to thailand. Again, mixed feelings about it. I guess I have 1 week to make my tummy flat again before exposing my body under the hot sun at thailand.