Someone explain to me why is my nose so problematic.. It's like I have this permanent nose block, permanent runny nose sia. Like how I'll always have indigestion problems. Problematic!!! My eyes are problematic too. So many problems.... :(

It's already 11pm. Everytime I'm home time flies so fast.. Why do I not enjoy school so much? It's so hard to look till the end of the day. Just so hard. I'm like feeling so what the fuck right now because every few minutes I'm blowing my nose.

So many assessments just piling and piling and piling. I wanna graduate so badly and yet I have so much to do before I graduate. What the hell. The one that I'm stressing the most right now is the freaking hip hop choreography assessment... I HAVE NO INSPIRATION AT ALL T_T... I'm gonna disappoint XT so bad. Someone help me..

Argh I'm very depressed about my weight seriously. I really haven't been on the weighing scale for like.... more than half a year already. If I stand on it I confirm wanna commit suicide lol. I know I've been gaining weight. It's just this feeling you just know it. Then this morning I was just really hungry. My mom was out so I just asked if she could takeaway mcdonalds for me. Then she just added a few sentences that made my morning shitty. "You need to cut down on your food intake. Can see that you're growing" Wow mom what a way to put it. So I just wanted her to be even more direct so I asked what she meant. And she said she could tell that I was putting on weight. Sigh my heart. I hate this!!!!! I know it myself... I feel so conscious now when I wear tank tops... T_T Sigh how did I gain so much how did I become so fat. Everytime I wear the bloody leotard for ballet I don't even wanna look at myself in the mirror. The love handles on my tummy... I CAN'T STAND LOOKING AT IT IT HAS TO GO!!!!

Seriously how long do I have to deal with my weight issues.. Its so unfair how others get to eat normally and they don't put on a single weight. As long as I don't diet, I confirm put on weight. Chee to the bong what the hell. I'm like so determined to make sure I lose all these weight before cny... I have to... That's like less than a month from now.

& I miss baby so much... SAVE MEEEE It's only mid week.. G o d if only he was studying in the same school as me.. Wah every night can look forward to seeing him.. I confirm can get through the day like phew~ Hehe -oh wells maybe i'm dreaming already i'm sleep-blogging hahahaha- Can't wait to see that boy again. Always looking forward to seeing him. Always feeling so happy when I know I can see him~~