Shit day

Felt like shit before I slept

Felt like shit when I woke up

Felt like shit throughout the day

Felt like shit when I came home

How nice would it be if I felt like shit and someone actually cheered me up. I can't even remember the last time that happened. How nice would if be to feel like maybe the world is crumbling down but I can still smile because something else is happiness to me. 

Nope.... Just nope. Shows how much that person knows me honestly speaking.. That's quite sad though I don't wanna think about it. Maybe that's why like poles repel. Negative and negative will never light up. Neither can positive and positive. 

So where exactly is my positive?

This life is honestly tiring. And maybe just maybe I don't wanna live that long in this life. It's useless.