Just finished watching the movie 7 letters and feeling emotional again. Eyer don't like movies that make me cry in public!!!!! Boohoo omg but it made me reminisce so much of the old Singapore. It really has changed so much in the past 10 over years.. I lived 2 decades and it has changed so much. I can't imagine how much nostalgia my parents would be feeling cuz majority of the short films are like in the 1970s. I'm really glad to have been through the non technology phase of life. It really was memorable.. 

And then guess what.. After sobbing like a mehmeh in the theatre, was cleaning my tears and walking out of the cinema. I saw someone whom I used to shared memories with....? Oh my god what are the odds. Singapore is sooooo small but it's not even small also. The door opened so small and I was like shit. I fucking walked out and confirmed it was him!!!! Shit I swear omg damn crazy. Suddenly I just feel like omg day of nostalgia no joke.

I don't know why I just have this sentimental connection with my sec 1 memories. I really don't even know why. I am darn sure it was puppy love but I was also darn sure that was the most dramatic and most memorable part of my secondary school life. This is bad :( What a day I don't like to drown in memories.... Especially days when I used to be stress free... I really don't wanna grow up no joke :'( 

I miss baby so much it's crazy.... this one week I just feel like a part of me is gone. ITS HORRIBLE :'(!!!!!! This is really the first time I'm feeling this... I probably felt this when I was at Thailand last year when finding wifi was hard. But this is even harder because I can't even contact him.. I can't help but just keep thinking of the worst. One more week this is crazy :( 

Went to drink and eat dinner with my family... Felt good. I feel good not being so sober.. And it's quite bad.. I suddenly just feel like drinking everyday to get through the night it might probably be easier. I remember I have one chivas unopened at bang bang. wth should've just bought somewhere where I can chill and not a bloody club. Gawd. Whatever money gone to waste. I wish every week will be like this... I really don't mind spending one day with my parents drinking and talking. It's so nice to feel less sober.. I actually miss this feeling.. Shit 

I miss you dyla ong yao hui.. I feel so empty without my baby its driving me crazy.