Haven't been blogging at all.. Hais I miss how convenient it was to do everything when my laptop was still working... I swear I wish money grew on trees sometimes. 

I've officially left hell. Have been pretty much just chilling ever since I left. I'm not bored of it, I'm kinda enjoying this nothingness. Because how long in a long while do you get to do nothing all day everyday? Really not long...

My December is gonna be packed. I feel excited but I'm stressed at the same time. Like why's time passing so quickly... Can it slow down??? It's been a nice November honestly. I love the last 2 months of the year. It just gives me lots of good vibes. The past few weeks made me feel like this whole year was not shitty at all though it totally was one helluva fucked up year..  

I can't believe I'm gonna be a student again. Of course once again I'm looking forward to it and when it starts I'm gonna cry everyday. WHY IS LIFE SO TOUGH. Why is life always looking greener on the other side? 

I feel alittle unhappy sometimes when I'm out with my friends. There are those days when I wished my boyfriend's lifestyle was kinda like mine. It's like places I go with my friends I wished I was with my boyfriend instead. But when I think back it wouldn't be the same because my boyfriend is just not that kind of person. Take cafe hopping for example. So many places I wanna go at holland v cuz it's kinda changed alittle since the last time I been there. If I go with my friends I feel at ease. I don't have to worry about spending too much because it's affordable.. When I go out with him in so stressed like why must he pay everything... I'd feel so much better and I'd enjoy so much better if I paid for my own things and still be able to enjoy the vibe.. I can travel around on public transport with my friends and regardless of how tired we are we'll still take it anyway because that's our lifestyle.. But it's not his. Sigh to the pie it's just mehhhhh. I think of things like just randomly traveling all the way to jurong just for fun. But no I doubt it'll be fun for him. he'll just dread the long bus/train ride and end up suggesting to cab. It's not that I wanna go jurong? It's just that I like long journeys sometimes it just give us time to be together and stuff. Not always staying indoors and all.. 

Aiyo I'm so crazy right now I wanna see him.. How liddat? life is horrible when I can't sleep. Life is horrible when I have a horrible sore throat. Life is horrible when I can't see my guy when I miss him like crazy. Life is horrible when there's so much to I want to do but hais forever worrying about money.. Am I 40 years old or 20 years old why the fuck am I worrying about money. God damn it.... :(