Did I mentioned on my previous post how I fell sick on Christmas and New years? I probably did. I currently still am sick but at least I'm not having crazy fever like Dylan is right now. I'm coughing my lungs out and it's killing me but I'm surviving.
Have been attempting to take care of Dylan for the past 2 days because he has been having a tremendously high temperature. I have not taken care of anyone in my entire life before and he's the first. But then i feel so taken for granted yet again. Does he know how worried I am when I see his temperature go up to 39 and above? Does he know how serious it is if it continues going up? I've not been able to like take care of him during the night because I don't stay with him and I can't stay with him. It's not my fault that I can't. If he knew me well he would know If I could I would. But he gets annoyed and angry and then everytime I worry he gets angry. What? I'm not saying I am asking anything in return but at least don't make me feel so taken for granted of. I can't sleep properly because I scared he might text me anytime. Went over to his place today also cannot sleep because I scared his temperature keep going up. I'm so worried about him but he only sees the part where I can't fucking stay over to take care of him. Sorry then.
Meh. Feel like shit. 关心你也被骂. "Behind every angry woman is a guy who doesn't know what he did wrong." Like legit. Always asking me why I'm so angry why i'm so pek. Does he know how shitty i feel when I cannot do anything? I'm trying to like compensate today. Does he see it or does he not?
Meh. I want sleeping pills now so I can knock out.
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