I saw this on social media and thought I'd try and explain why some girls actually DO NOT wanna explain or say how they are feeling to their other halves. 

In the picture it says "Give them the chance to listen, give them the chance to understand. Let them love you." But when you're together with someone long enough you'll know certain things are off boundaries to their ears. You just know there are certain things that they just simply do not want to hear and if ever we try to speak up, it'll just lead to arguments or quarrels. Why would we wanna land ourselves in such a state? 

If we know the other person can try and understand where we're coming from, we know we can sort things out and we know that we can get through it properly without causing hurt to one another, who wouldn't wanna say what's on their minds? 

Especially me. I hate so much to keep things in my heart. I hate it so much because it consumes me slowly. All my life I've been keeping things in my heart. Tolerating people's bullshit telling myself they are no one to me so I shouldn't give 10 fucks. I wish for a partner that I can communicate with I can talk about anything under the sky to. That's my only requirement in a relationship. Because I know with communication at hand everything else doesn't matter because we will get through it with communication. 

But seems like now it has come down to the point where I choose to keep things within me. I do not want to get into any fights. I know certain topics are just so sensitive and it sucks because close mindedness is just sucky. It's like as much as I am so quiet I just wanna share my entire life with the people I'm close with. And it sucks when I feel like they are not doing the same back to me. 

Small things like what happen to my everyday life literally if there are anything that has happened to me I'd be so excited to tell someone and that someone for now is obviously my boyfriend. But after awhile it's just like, "He doesn't seem to share anything with me. Am I sharing too much then?" Hai. I realise he only start telling me small things in his life when he happens to be with one of his friends or something.. But when we're alone it's just nothing. No conversation from him.. Meh 

Many times I feel like I'm fighting to be part of his life because he never puts me in automatically. And it's different when people tell you stuff willingly versus you asking the person so many questions. It then becomes questioning session. Like digging for information instead of just a casual conversation.. 

My birthday wish I don't want anything I just want way more understanding between us. It's never just about the surface of matters. 

"Nothing says "I'm sorry" more than corrected behavior after the apology."