Sometimes I think in Secondary school, a workshop on handling your own financial matters should be set compulsory. I mean it's so important? It's your own money how can you not even bother and handle it well? Especially men. I don't get it. All of them hate the idea that women are slowing taking over the world yet they're not stepping up their game. They hate that women talk too much. They hate that women think too much. They hate that women count too much. They just hate this and hate that but there's always a cause and effect. What's the cause that has that effect on women? Ever gave a thought about that? It's so easy to complain and ask people to shut up but do you ever think why people even bother saying so much? How can anyone be safe with someone who can't even handle a few hundreds? How can you dream to be a successful man when you can't understand the importance of control? A successful man deals with huge numbers and a few hundreds is peanuts. 

Every month I deal with the same problem and yet I am still here trying my best to find the tiniest hope that maybe one fucking month I will actually be proven wrong. Every month I tell myself it's a new chance given and something miraculous might happen. And every month I feel the same disappointment and every month I get asked the same questions "What are you angry about" "Why are you angry". Really? Are you really asking me those questions? By now you should've been well aware enough about all these issues and make it stop happening. But no we just continuously let history repeat and repeat. More than half a year ago I was living the no-money life. I spent all my money on god knows what maybe cigs maybe drinks maybe grab/uber and I had no fucking money by the third week. I hated that feeling and I told myself that needed to fucking stop happening and I made it stop. 

What's so hard for you to just try your best to keep ur money in ur pocket for 4 weeks. What's so hard to tell yourself just because you have a few hundreds in hand DOESNT MEAN you have enough money to spend without thinking? If you were maybe 5-10 years younger I guess it's still forgivable that you have no control over such things you are a spendthrift etc etc. But no........ Time just keeps passing by. Every month passes is you getting a month older. It's so easy to say others like "Oh you mean he only has 10k savings? Thats not much actually" But how about yourself? You're finding a million excuses to cover up the fact that you have nothing. Others have other obstacles too. Do they tell people that as an excuse? Nope. They fight it and they jump over it. 

In your own family there is a very good example of someone you do not want to become. But if you just simply carry on thinking hundreds every month is a lot of money and not thinking before you spend, your time is running out and yes by 40 you're still gonna be the same. You may think 13 years is a long time but nope. 4 years is also a very long time and 4 years a lot could've been done but nope. We are still where we are. You can always diss someone and say how useless someone is. But reflect on yourself and ask yourself are you any better? If you're not then make it a point to be better. 

When I start working and when I start saving up my own money, and you're still not, how does that reflect on yourself? What excuses are you gonna give again? 6 years in the army and not a single cent saved. Look back and start counting how much you've spent. It's quite scary to be honest. It's easy to say you're useless. Then what about being useless? You wanna continue living that kind of life? You're happy with this kind of life? If the answer's no then why are the daily habits simply not changing? Everything starts from a day to day basis and nothing just happens overnight. If u think you can start chionging saving by the time you're 30 or 35 even then maybe it's abit too late. That's not how a mindset of someone who has the thought of settling down early should be.