Whee~

ANNYEONGGGGG I can't concentrate on my show right now because SBS gayo daejun is happening and I'm just refreshing their youtube page to watch the performances because the streaming link is too laggy. SIGH PIE PARK BOM IS PERFECTION. TAEMIN AND KAI IS BEYOND PERFECTION. Twitter had this trend going on "#mentionperfection" WELL 2NE1 TAEMIN SHINEE MBLAQ KAI HYUNJOONG!!!! I LUB YOU I LUB YOU SENDING ALL MY KISSES ALL THE WAY TO KOREA! MUACKS MUACKS

 

 

HIGHLIGHT OF THE NIGHT.... how dare you copy taemin's sherlock era hairstyle. HAHAHA

 

(PHOTOS OF TAEMIN AND SHINEE ARE TOO BLUR FOR GAYO DAEJUN T_T)

In the midst of spazzing, daddy sent me this from the 3rd floor where is room is.

HAHA THIS FATHER!!!

 

Well nothing much happened yesterday and today... Just spent my time watching Rooftop prince and caught up with other shows. LOL This Rooftop prince... It's another show where I watched like 10minutes of it and switched it off because I didn't like the starting. Now i learn my lesson. Next time if I watch a show and the starting is boring, i'm just gonna endure cuz the back might just be good.

 

Alright!!! I've gotten my schedule for sem2!!! It's almost the same.. Thank god there's no ballet on the first day of school. However we've got many hours of rehearsal for OZ? Whatever crap is that? Seems to be important cuz we've got so many rehearsal slots for that. Hmmm... Well well well dip1s always know nothing and then gets bombed in the end. Tsk..  

 

My excitement meter for school to start has gone up by 10% because I'm excited to perform!!!! There are like 3 performances to look forward to!! Excited!!! Seeing taekai dance makes me EVEN MORE EXCITED!!! Sigh you're such inspiration darlingz. Alright 끝!!!

3rd day of Christmas

Spent my 3rd day of Christmas with Lili today~ We went to noraebang (karaoke in korean) and sang out hearts out for hours at Marina Square! Went to physio early in the morning first before meeting up with her. Had Starbucks breakfast. Full like mad.. Haha.

 

Ok so i was enjoying my whole karaoke session with queen lili. When i clicked "S club 7", i came upon this major classic song called "Have you ever". It was one of my most favourite song when I was young. YESSSS I WATCH S CLUB 7 HAHAHA WHAT THE HELL IKR HOW LONG AGO WAS THAT MAN? Don't ask why I did!!! I think i was like not even 7 when it aired. It was on tv so.... they looked so cool and I always wanted to be like them. LOL AT THAT POINT OF TIME LA~ I would always watch them dance and sing and ask my mother "mummy i wanna dance to english songs too where can i learn?" & she'd always pretend not to hear me and made me look like i'm talking to myself, or maybe to the tv.. (Gawd they are a clique of 7 too HAHAHAHA HEY HEY HEY WE CAN BE CNE CLUB 7!!!!)

 

I would really be so thankful to god if I had a good voice.... :( I love to sing. Sigh

 

Walked around Marina Square aimlessly. Had nothing to do. Then we went to Raffles Link looking for the awfully chocolate ice cream. But they no longer sell it and I was so sad... Then we walked passed Canele. The Macarons were just staring at me and telling me 'BUY ME! BUY ME!' & so i had to. I wanted to buy 2. But then Liqian also wanted. So we got 6 altogether since it was cheaper that way. SO FAT AND DELICIOUS TO THE MAX!! It's the first time that I bought it FOR MYSELF. Usually I'd steal a bite or two from whoever that bought it :B Heheh i'm cool that way.

 

Walked around the whole of raffles link acting like retards as usual. Hahaha so funny just thinking of the lame moments we had. Just needed time to pass so we could eat dinner!!! HAHA had Din Tai Fung for dinner and IT WAS HEAVENLY. Didn't had a full meal for the whole day and dtf saved the day. Bid goodbye after that because there was really nothing to do.

 

Sigh they are only left with less than a week of holiday... I'm gonna be all alone again :( When will we get to hang out again? Sigh suddenly I want time to rewind so we can get to see each other everyday in school. Getting out of my daddy's car, walking to the canteen like a zombie and always greeted by Charlotte cuz she's always in school even before the school gate opens LOL. Some days maybe she's sleeping like a pig. Some days maybe the art geeks would rush their art works. Then we'll just stone like a pig during morning assembly.. Those days where I'd just fall asleep in class and no matter how hard the teacher tries to wake me up, I'd just ignore her. Mr Peterson would make me so angry during Bio at times with his ridiculous stare and his "shhhhanNNETTEEE. -stern voice-" How I was so scared to switch on the bunsen burner during chem practicals and Jai had to help me and then laugh at me. Days where suddenly Sitifarah would invade our classroom during recess and then walk around like a boss and then leave. There's so much more to say it might just take me the whole night.

 

I kinda liked the feeling of having nothing to blog about during my sec4 days. That was the only year out of all my years of blogging that i stopped entirely. My days were all awesome. No drama AT ALL, just schoolwork torture. When can I be like that again?

 

Time's just getting faster by the minute. In no time, the next Christmas will arrive. A year from now, god knows what kind of a person I'll become. Will I be nearer to my dream? Or further?...

 

I'm so scared of my future. I really am. Doubting myself is bad but.. I gotta face reality. I need plan B and C and D at least if plan A fails.

2nd day of Christmas

So i spent my 2nd day of Christmas with Jai. Went to Vivo to watch Les Miserables. It was a beautiful show. Sobbed so much at the ending. Couldn't enjoy the middle part of the show that much because we were given FIRST ROW seats. My neck almost died for the whole 2 over hours, almost 3. I think I'm gonna rewatch it with my mama. Yay!!! I love it. I really loved the show!!! Walked around Vivo aimlessly and time flew by so fast. Reached home before 9.

 

Since last night I've been watching this drama called I Miss You. Ok actually I watched like 10minutes of it when it first came out but I didn't understand it at all so I didn't continue. The starting of the show was so boring. But after that it got so intensed and now i'm addicted to it. Yes I spent the whole night from 10pm to 5am watching it. The first thing I did when i woke up this morning, was to watch one episode of this before heading out of the house. Right now I'm at episode 10 and I'm dying cuz I can't seem to stop watching LMFAO. I need to be up by 7am and It's almost 1 right now. ARGH such a melancholic show. Sobbed so bloody much. Like really. Out of 10 episodes, I think i sobbed for 9 of them. & the other 1 was probably only because Yoochun was too cute. SUCH A SAD SHOW I CAN'T TAKE IT T_T Sobbed my life away. But Yoon Eun Hye is such a good actress.... I always never fail to love her shows. I lub chu Yoon Eun Hye!!!  

 

Yes I'm gonna continue watching my sad lovely drama. Goodbye for now.

Watch it if you haven't. Just prepare lots of tissues.

Merry Christmas!!!

I now know why there ARE people in the world who hates Christmas. But oh well, yesterday didn't turn out that bad afterall.

So Fion came at almost 3. We did quite alot of catch up and then took loads of polaroids of the same pose because it didn't came out well. THIS IS WHY POLAROIDS ARE ANNOYING. You never know how the polaroid will turn out. Laughed alot too because of all the ridiculous moments we had. PLUS, i was high on chocolates sigh. Ate too many ferrero rochers.... (I'm still eating chocs right now. HAHAHA)

My clique came at about 7ish? THINGS BECAME AWKWARD. Actually I kinda knew it would happen la, why did I still let it happen?!?!? I actually thought I could breakthrough the awkwardness between Fion and my clique. But those kukubirds were having their own conversations between themselves, EVEN LEAVING ME OUT OF IT. I don't even know how to break it. You gotta think leh, it's like 4 people against 1 leh. Wth.

I got a shock when everyone of them came with a present. REALLY EVERYONE, even Amanda. That was the first ever present I've recieved from Amanda. YEAH IT'S CHOCOLATES BUT......... It's from Amanda. She don't even give presents.. Charlotte's present was the shock-est of all. She gave me a pair of fluffy portable speakers. SHE, HERSELF!!!!! Andrea gave me facial masks but she kinda spoilt it by telling me that it has been sitting in her fridge for almost 2 years . . . She does know how sensitive my face is right...?! & Jai of course, Jai is always giving me gifts lulz.

MAIN POINT IS........ I was in a shock. The year that I decide not to do any Christmas shopping, they all decide to buy christmas gifts and bla. Somemore everything was so last minute. Hmmmm or was it only last minute for myself? Lol. I was trying to recall what presents i gave them last year. Up till now I still can't remember except Jai's.

WHATEVER IT IS..... Thanks for patronising this party every year without fail. & i'll just probably go do some late christmas shopping. I can never stand taking and not giving. It's just awkward for me. Lol~

I was also shocked at my father's and mother's friends comments on me. They said I changed ALOT. So much that they could hardly recognise me. I know every festive season I get those comments but nothing as big as this year's. You know... I was walking up to this uncle, to greet him.

"Merry Christmas Uncle James!!"
-He was looking down and replying me- "Oh oh ya Merry Christmas WA!?"
That was when he already looked up and saw me. His reaction was so genuine I could hardly even forget it.
"Wa changed so much already. I can't even recognise you!" & he looked at my father and said how much I've changed. He told my mother too.

Most of the cases were like saying I've really grown up already... Then when they start observing me even more they said I slim down.... WHICH IS JUST BULLSHIT. LMFAO. This half of the year, I've been eating worse than a pig ok.

Those uncles were just sitting there talking about me, THINK I DONT KNOW... (They are not perverts. I've known them since young.) For a moment I didn't know where to go or what to do. I kinda like stoned in the middle of nowhere for a second. Then uncle Henry caught up with me & asked if I had a boyfriend. LMFAO I'VE NEVER GOT THAT QUESTION FROM THEM BEFORE. That's a first. & he thought I was lying when I said I didn't have any. Told him no one wanted me. Hahaha. IT'S A FACT WHAT. Is it NOT normal to NOT have a boyfriend?!?! Don't be so shocked la aiyo. Me and Fion will die with many cats around us. Sexy cat women... Right Fion? LOL. I kinda never gotten so much attention from my dad's friends before. It was always about Spencer spencer spencer. -.-

Fion left at about 9 and the rest left at almost 11. Dad's friends left quite late. I still feel weird not hugging my friends goodbye. Have I mentioned this before? I'm so used to hugging people now that when I don't, i feel so awkward. What's more is that they are my clique mates. Hahahaha NU we're cool like that. I slept at 12ish cuz I was too tired and suddenly my nose got itchy.

Da crazy pink haired Andrea

 

 

 

Then when i woke up this morning, I was in a shock at this stupid whatsapp group conversation that I have. It's understandable if they don't reply on normal days. BUT IT'S CHRISTMAS. At least have the bloody courtesy to reply a MERRY CHRISTMAS right?! Omg I'm just losing it man. Enough is enough k. If the people don't bother, I'll not too. You treat me like nothing, I'll treat you 10 times worse. Don't play a fool. To me, we're almost nothing without Andrea bringing us together. Really. & I've reached the point where no one in school is more important than Andrea. Everyone in school can just not be my friend anymore but not her. Yes I've finally said this. Out loud.

Feeling shitty for the whole day. Brother's been out. Mother and father having their own couple moments. AND I'M FOREVER ALONE. Fuck. Slept through my whole afternoon because I was that sad. Then my dad came in, I thought he suddenly had plans for us to go somewhere or what, but instead he told me to turn down the volume of my speaker because my music was too loud. WHAT!

MAJOR SAD FACE ON A CHRISTMAS DAY HOW SAD. David Archuleta's My Kind of Perfect has been stuck on my head for the whole day. That's probably my song of the day. I had a weird dream while taking my nap just now. What kind of dreams am i having!!! Tsk...

I thought of school too. Sigh only 1/4 of me wants school to start. I'm not prepared for the stress that's about to come, the unneccesary drama that's about to happen all over again, the demoralization that I'm gonna get. NOT PREPARED TO SEE ELIZABETH'S FACE EVERYDAY, NOT PREPARED TO HEAR SUSAN'S HARSH REMARKS. I just still wanna be in my own world.

Now i'm just gonna end this post, still not feeling any better.

Ding Dong

Argh. To be honest, i was preparing to go to sleep already. But then i suddenly had so many things to say. So i'll just blog. Damn I have so much to say right now. & i still owe you guy's yesterday's post. Sigh i hate queuing posts up.

 

Let me first say the thing that's frustrating me now.

 

Okay so I have this Christmas Party on Eves every god damn year in my entire life. When i was younger it used to be very fun, duh. We were so young and we could even play catching in the house. How can it not be fun? It was something that i always used to look forward to because I get to see friends that I only see like during festive seasons. But as you grow older, things start to get duller. So I stopped inviting people since 2 years back because I don't know how to entertain them. It's not like my house has a big pool for them to chill at or pool table for them to play pool. There's no turkey or teen games for them to play. It's just all very adult-ish and whatever.

 

MY POINT. I don't wanna bore them. So i don't wanna invite them. But they all are just asking for their own deaths. They come to me and ask me if they could come to my "party". Lol wtf. Ya serious? I'm dying to do something interesting and fun and exciting and there they are, asking if they wanna come to my lame party. Oh my god. Every year also same problem. I'm getting sick of this. It's not gonna get any fun unless 10 handsome princes turn up at the party k.

 

My initial plan was to just suffer throughout the night alone in my room, surfing the net. You know..... It's either I have fun or I don't entertain at all. Now i'm NOT GONNA HAVE FUN and I HAVE TO ENTERTAIN. Fuck my life. How am i not pissed? Also, I didnt do ANY christmas shopping at all. NONE. No presents for ANYONE because i didn't invite ANYONE. Lol come to think of it I don't think I should give. I'M ALWAYS GIVING AND GIVING AND GIVING AND I'M ALWAYS GETTING NONE BACK. Even if I've gotten anything, IT'S NOTHING FROM THE HEART. Bloody hell. It's so frustrating. FRUSTRATING!!!!!! It's like, I put in so much effort in a card or whatever i choose to buy for each friend PERSONALLY, and then they turn up at my house giving me chocolates. BLOODY HELL GO BANG THE WALL. NOW.

 

(Yes Christmas is the joy of giving. Yes I'm not complaining about GIVING. I'm whining over the fact that I don't get back the same amount of sincerity I'm getting from people & i'm upset about that.)

 

Other thing. If y'all don't already know, my clique has this CNE group on Facebook. So you know, if I have anything to share or any funny videos to share, I'd post there first before anything. WHAT KIND OF RESPONSE AM I GETTING? NONE. & Facebook is fucking turning into another whatsapp. I can bloody see who's seen the damn post. It pisses me off so much when I post something and NO ONE RETURNS A REPLY. IS IT SO HARD? TO JUST TYPE AFEW WORDS? Don't fucking understand. It's not only them ok. You know who you are, those who don't bloody reply. These are the tiny things that makes me shut myself away from people. I'm trying to share some joy with y'all and I get no response. OK FUCKING CAN. Next time when no one replies you, no one response to you, DON'T BOTHER ASKING WHY.

 

Argh angry bird. I'm so temperamental today.

 

Ok so on Saturday Me Andrea and Jingwen went to the Night Safari to visit Afiq the Kangaroo. Oh my god you have no idea how mesmerised I was with all the characters. They are all so cuteeeee!!! What's better is that they are the people I know!!! How awesome!!!

 

Didn't know what to do after that. Decided to go home. But when me and Andrea reached amk, we decided to eat again cuz Andrea's hungry. Went to KFC. Aw walking by those routes gave me so much secondary school memories. & Delin memories too. LMFAO hmm.

 

Had a h2h talk with Andrea. Lol no everytime we talk, it's always h2h. Hahaha. Talked so much and we kinda forgotten about the time. Left kfc at about 11plus and went back home.

 

Today, I went back to school to dance with Liqian. We did the Keep your head down's warmup and we almost died. HAHAH so awesome that's the best warmup exercise ever i swear. It trains flexibility too. Awesome? Yeah. We danced till about 4pm and we left. Did Hung Up and Jump before we left. Made me miss secondary school dance alot... It was so easy and there were no first position fifth position and whatever nonsense to follow... Sigh i miss those days so much i almost cried. I miss Miss Shining and her warmups... I can't believe Liqian remembered everything. I couldn't!!!!! But after awhile it came back~ Haha.

 

Went to somerset. On the way there, we bumped into this ex convict that was so irritating. Argh. The way she spoke to us was very rude and irritating. It was something to do with donation and nonsense. I don't mind if i get to choose any amount i want to donate you know. BUT THIS WOMAN. She was like "Y'all can share $5 each or $10 each or something." I'm just there like WTF FUCKING RIPPER. Obviously you can't do anything in such situations. I think my entire life I've been cheated of almost a hundred now already man. It's called DOING A GOOD DEED RIGHT? (pui.)

 

Had dinner at Pastamania and we sat there for 2 hours talking nonsense. Haha. Walked around and left for home after that.

 

Not looking forward to tomorrow. I think next year I'll have to learn how to lie.

Taiwan

Hello.... I'm back from Taiwan. Well well well I don't even know where I should start. Should I just start with my current feelings? Since it's currently the strongest feeling I'm having right now and it's bugging me like mad.

I was still feeling fine when I reached Changi Airport. I even saw my primary school friend, Jeffrey!!! How coincidental... We were on the same plane back from Taipei. He even made me take an unglam picture with him sigh I hope it doesn't go up on Facebook...  Told Andrea that i reached Singapore and she immediately called me. Hahaha she was so cute on the phone <3

I always kinda like plan in my head what I'll do in advance. But it kinda didnt went as planned. The moment i stepped into the house, mom told me I had a letter from Lasalle. My heart dropped to the ground. The first thing I thought of was report card. Ok well it wasnt, but it was close enough. Since it was a letter informing me that I've failed one or more subject... It stated that I should ask my programme leader immediately. So i texted Melissa. & she told me I failed Ballet. WHAT'S FUCKING NEW? I stared at her message for 10 seconds straight, trying to digest her message into my brain. I expected myself to fail dance history and not ballet. I'm so disappointed. I know the whole fucking world is just waiting for this day. All of you bitches just waiting for me to fail fucking ballet. I don't even know who i should tell this to cuz in their heads, they would probably go like, "i knew she'd fail." "of course she'd fail." and whatever other negative comments. Yeah fuck my life i failed.

Ok let me just put that aside for now. No point being so whiny over it... I just needed to write that shit out and accept it. Ha you know how torturous it was in Taiwan that I couldn't blog for 8 days!?!?! So many things to say yet I couldn't blog. Most of the time I'd like take notes or what not but this time i didnt.

Didn't do anything for the first day of Taiwan because by the time we reached the hotel it was already nearing 5 and we were tired so we just ate dinner and slacked. You know what I'm really lazy to post out all 8 days of my trip. Lol you should know how much i detest writing overdated entries. Especially vacations..... I mean if it was super memorable I'd definitely note down every single detail but this trip was just so-so... I shall just pick out some parts of the trip that affected me or what not.

Okay there was this particular day where we went up the mountains. I really don't remember any names so lets just say princess mountain. Cuz the "hotel" i lived in reminded me of a Cottage. I totally felt like snow white except there were no 7 dwarfs. Beautiful place. Since it's at the mountains, the air was super fresh and everything's so peaceful~ It was super cold though. I was only wearing a layer that was not even long sleeved. At first i thought I could handle da coldness, but as the wind grew stronger, I started shivering like mad. But i didn't show it cuz then my parents would make a whole load of unneccessary noise.

Another part of the trip that was awesome.... Hmmm~ Ok so we switch hotels almost everyday. Cuz we travel around the whole of Taiwan. At this particular hotel, they have this lantern thingy at night called 天灯(Sky Lanterns). If you've watched traditional chinese dramas or even those traditional hongkong dramas, you'll probably know that I'm talking about. It's like this super big lantern that you get to write your wishes on, and then light it up so it will fly to the sky!! It was so drama!!!! The only thing lacking in the scene was.... no background music and not enough chinese feel. HAHA. My parents wrote so many wishes.... Greedy people... I only have one wish. One wish that I doubt it can ever happen unless a miracle happens. "Be a successful dancer."

There was this guy whom I kept bumping into throughout my entire trip. He's a Singaporean that looks alot like Nat Ho. The first time i saw him was during the lantern thing. My mother was the one who saw him first and told me that he was handsome. So i took notice of him ever since. Bumped into him at a very crowded street, then another time at this chinese temple, and the last time, at this myungdong lookalike street. I was so freaked out okay, especially the incident at the temple and myungdong lookalike street. My mother was like "wow it's been quite long since we bumped into handsome guy hor..." So i'm like yeahhhhhh... LOL then after lunch, we bumped into him right outside the temple. I couldn't believe my eyes man. I swear i was rubbing it alot of times. PLUS..... WE WERE WEARING THE SAME COLOURED TOP AND BOTTOM. What a coincidence?!? :B Oh i forgot to mention how good he looks in basics. SHIT ok dudes who can actually look bloody hot in basics are just BLOODY HOT. Then while we were at that myungdong lookalike street, the chances of bumping into him were like super low because we already walked the whole street and was just at some corner eating some street food, resting. When we were about to leave that street, HE WALKED OUT FROM THE OTHER SIDE AND STOOD AT THE SAME SPOT WE WERE RESTING AT. I COULDNT BELIEVE MY EYES. Really jaw dropped and went crazy. Well.... That was the last time i saw him though. Hahaha bye bye handsome guy.

The thing that irritated me the most throughout the trip was that out of the blue, my whole family would just outcast me by talking about their fish business. Fuck them. I really don't get why they have to do this. We seldom spend time together. They EVERYDAY also get to talk about their fishes. Can't they just spare a bloody thought for me and for just bloody 8 days, fuck off from fishes? You know what's the worse part? The worst part is that they know how much i hate them talking about fishes infront of me. Very fun issit? Leaving me out of the chat topic? Might as well just leave me out of the trip? The other thing is, everytime i talk, THEY NEVER LISTEN. What's new la right? It's not only them. All my other friends also does the same thing to me. Always about them, never about me. When I'm quiet, they are always asking me to say something. When I've got so many things to say, THEY JUST DON'T WANNA LISTEN. Even if they are, their replies are just there to entertain me.

I was telling my mom something, I don't remember what but i was very into it. Then she suddenly cut me off and started talking to my dad about the directions or traffic or what IDK LA. So i got pissed off. DUH? She could've just said wait right? Everytime she tells me she listens but her whole body language just doesn't say it at all. So i tested her. She told me to continue but I didn't even know where to continue so i asked her, "where did i stop." Obviously i knew where i stopped. BUT SHE DIDNT. I knew she didnt and she still can bullshit to me say what she listen. Her reply was bullshit so i got even madder and just walked away. SHE'S OBVIOUSLY IN THE WRONG. Damn it. After awhile I got left out again. ALWAYS. Everytime my mother's angry everybody just leaves me out and fucking go to her. HOW ABOUT ME? It doesn't mean she's my mother means she's always right ok.

So irritated. Irritated by the fact that even though we spend so little time together, they still don't bother giving me their full attention. & I'm always the bad guy cuz I don't fucking know how to show my emotions well. Oh just fuck you.

Ok so i was on the phone with Andrea for quite awhile after I reached home. She told me loads of bullshit that i missed for the week too. I really can't tolerate unneccessary drama. This is how my life works. I can be there for my friends and all those corny crap. But I cannot do anything if people just keep pushing me away right? I only give people ONE CHANCE. Don't make me the bad person by feeling or saying how I don't care about the things around me. I am here, no one comes to me. So i live by myself! End of story. I don't go around poking my nose into other people's affairs and create drama for myself. If i were her, I'D JUST FUCKING THROW ALL THIS BULLSHIT AWAY. Cuz it's unneccessary. Call me heartless. I see the BIG picture.

& nevermind. I've been through 17years of my life with no one putting me first in their hearts. I'm used to it and I don't give a shit anymore in case no one realises. I've stopped expecting things. I'm definitely not happier but I've saved myself from lots of disappointments. Afterall you only have yourself to lean on no matter what happens.

Putting that all aside, let's carry on with photos. There's too many of them... Well actually not alot compared to my other trips. But I'm just lazy la k? Heh so i made it into 2 videos... There's kinda videos in the video too. Heh enjoy.

(Fuck this shit i queued this post for too long because the videos were taking forever. Up till now one of them is still not done. So I'll just post up one and you'll just have to wait for another, it'll be up like later or something. Need to get this post up and done with so i can continue with my life!!!!)

A day before departure

Maxstep is still freaking stuck in my head.... SINCE YESTERDAY!!!! TILL NOW!!!! Sigh can't stand it

 

 태카이~

 

Totally woke up late this morning! I was supposed to be up at 7 to prepare so that me and mummy can leave house at 8.30 to go physio. BUT I WOKE UP AT 8.25 AND PANICKED LIKE MAD. My appointment was at 9!!!! I'm so lucky my physiotherapist didn't have anything booked after me so I still had my 30minutes with her.

 

Went to Vivo after that to shop with mummy. Most of the shops werent open yet but Cotton On was. So we went there. Left the place with 3 full bags. LOL. I kinda forgotten out route around the mall but we bought loads of things... ZARA, Topshop, Artbox, Mango, unknown shops... HAHA

 

 

Came home, ate dinner and died after that. I was too tired. Slept for an hour. Woke up and packed my luggage for Taiwan. Sigh packing luggage for cold countries is such a hassle!!! I really don't know if i'll be wearing too little or too much. So frustrating!!! I kinda hope the weather is not so cold that I have to wear a coat though. *prays*

 

Right now my nose is being an annoying spoilt tap. I kinda spammed perfume on my coat because it's been stuck inside this unused closet for a year now and it kinda has that extreme weird smell that I hate. You know how much i hate weird smells... -_- Right now I feel sick because I've been sneezing too much. Boohoo hopefully I sleep early tonight because I need to reach the airport before 6.30!!! That kinda tells you how early i gotta wake up. Boohoo I think i need to take a bath right now. My nose might just feel better after thatttttt! CYA IN.... 8 DAYS BYE!

Day 2 of exciting week

ALOHA DARLINGGGGZ!!~

So yesterday night was a pretty...... wtf night. I think my eyebag is gonna be bigger than my eyes soon. I'm not joking. Sigh couldn't sleep till 6am. Woke up at 12 panicking for a minute cuz I was supposed to meet Andrea at 1. But I saw Andrea's whatsapp telling me to meet at 2.30 instead. Hahaaa thank god~

She accompanied me to go collect my Ezlink card which I lost months ago. Walked around the whole of Chinatown because we didn't know where Maxwell road is. Thank god the weather was so not humid or warm or hot or else I would've gotten so cranky and frustrated. & no one likes cranky Shanny.

Then we went back to school to find Alison because Andrea needed to take her credit card. If not, she wouldnt be able to claim her booked tickets. OH SHE BOOKED SMTOWN TOKYO MOVIE TICKETS!!! Hahahaha how awesome <3 When we reached Plaza sing, we bought this Eskimo bubbletea which made me felt so super duper bloated. But my stomach needed some hot food so I still went to eat brunch. (Well it was already like 5pm so.... hmmm? LOL) Sat at the kopitiam and talked while we waited for time to pass.

I was so excited when the show/concert started!!! It's not the full thing of course, but it's still a concert and I just saw SHINee like 3 days ago. I miss them so much already :( I kinda already know they don't really like Singapore fans la... K seriously who doesnt know? I feel so happy and sad when i see photos/videos of them in Japan Taiwan or wherever. They are so happy and full of life everytime they perform at other countries. Even though Japan is not a country that I have much interest in.... I gotta say the fans there are so disciplined and well behaved... Every fancam that I see that is in Japan, the fans are just so!!! WELL BEHAVED!!! I wished Singaporeans were like that too. No matter what yay to SHINee~ & F(x)~ & Eunhyuk~ & Yunho~

Got back home earlier than my dad by 15minutes! Hahaha ate mummy's cake even though my stomach couldn't take it anymore. Right now i really need some drink that will make me shit like nobody's business so I can get rid of this bloaty stomach!!!!

I have not packed my luggage for Taiwan yet!!! I'm so sad it's a morning flight!! I don't like! Cuz there will be glaring sun and it'll be so bright and I can't get to sleep! Most of my flights are usually midnight. Only this year.... Bangkok trip was in the afternoon and Hongkong trip was in the morning (burning hot i almost died in the plane). NOOOOOOOOOO and and no one can send me off either. HAHAHA I can never forget the day where I first flew to Korea and my cliquemates treated me like a superstar. Sigh you guys give me the stupidest yet most precious memories. That was somehow my first and the last.

I don't even know how Taiwan's weather will be like. It's confusing me. It says there 15-25. THAT'S QUITE HUGE A DIFFERENCE... But then again, I remember even if it's 25degrees and there's wind, it will feel like it's 18degrees. (Jeju island experience. Almost died in the extreme windy weather. I was only wearing my grey jacket and leggings and some clothing inside.) Don't know i'm confused :(

Gonna spend my 12/12/12 with Mummy tomorrow!!!! Goodnight!!

A good week ahead

Weeeee it's the start of the exciting week~~~ Let me start off with yesterday..

Met up with Andrea at Bishan to go to Yew Tee to find Shafiq. That stupid place was the most boring "mall" i've ever been to in my entire life... But Shafiq as a gnome looks pretty cute.. :) We kinda wasted our time there because after his work, his boss or whoever told him and the rest that they had to cab to Toa Payoh to return the costumes. It's disappointing that we've travelled so far and yet we can't spend some time together. Oh well of course the typical me would treat it like it's nothing and just smile. :) Actually no. There's just something special about both Afiq and Shafiq. My tolerance level for the both of them is just soooooo high. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY. I wonder if Andrea and Jingwen feels the same... Hmmm? Afiq came when we were about to left. As blur as sotong, he just followed Afiq after hugging us hello/goodbye.

Went back home, did up my mother's letter and then caught up with my shows and fell asleep at 3ish...

Woke up this morning, determined to not eat anything because my stomach was still very bloated. So yes i didnt eat anything till dinner. I still feel bloated though. Even worse after dinner. I went straight to the toilet after dinner. I think the time of the month is coming. My stomach cannot tank anymore. It's just too big. I will really suffer like so damn bloody much if I ever get pregnant sigh. I don't look forward to fucking motherhood no joke.

Family went to Azur to eat buffet cuz it was my mommy's birthday~~ She look absolutely gorgeous today. HAHA. Ate like a pig that's why i rushed to the toilet immediately after that. Went back home and there's still cake below.... SIGH I actually wanna eat it but I think I'll just EXPLODE LIKE A PINATA!!!!

I'm gonna quote this whole paragraph from Andrea's secret blog. I can totally relate to it because I totally felt the same way.

"I got really into kpop at that time and really drowned my sorrows into
listening to happy kpop songs and spazzing over hot cute and
super good looking people whom i dont even know.
But the best part about it is that even though you're having
a "mental" unofficial relationship with your bias, they can never hurt you!
They say the sweetest things to make you happy, do the stupidest things to make you laugh,
perform their best on stage to make you proud, that is literally the epitome of true love right there!!!!!!
And even though at that time everyone was kinda dissing kpop..
I stood up for it cause it was literally my only reason .. to be happy."

You gotta totally agree to what she mentioned about kpop on top. That's the main reason why I love kpop. You get to be in love with whoever you want and even though they don't really know who the fuck are you, they still love you unconditionally. Yes it's blessful to be in a real relationship. You find the person you love and loves you back, get together and have the sweetest moments you can ever have. But everyone knows happiness don't last. I get scared when I'm so happy all of a sudden. It's just a sign that a big storm is about to come and just attack you from the back. That happened to me afew weeks back. You know something's wrong when all of a sudden things become what you dreamed of. Yes I can somehow predict the future in a way by my sixth sense (and some stalking of course) but it still is quite hurtful.

All those unneccesary drama some create.. I'm really not up for such things. The thought of it gives me the creeps. Yes i know if you love someone, you will go all out for that person. Well at least I'm like that. Even if the person stood me up for the stupidest reason, I think i'll still stupidly forgive the person and let it go. That's why...... JUST FANTASIZE OVER AN IDOL PEOPLE~~~~~~ DON'T FALL IN LOVE HAHAHA

I'm very happy that I'm getting out of here in like 2 days. I can escape reality. Leave whatever issues or nonsense that I have here in Singapore and have 1 over week of bonding time with my family.  Maybe I'm just born to be a selfish person. I just want to be happy. & I know i am when I'm standing alone. Probably another reason why I think I'll be forever alone. LOL I'm always helping people and such..... Who is gonna help me when I'm in trouble then? Myself right? See? I'm just independent that way. (Am i really independent...?)

SHINee World Concert ll 2012

Haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~

I slept at 4am last night... Tossed and turned but I still couldn't sleep. I tried to blank my mind BUT IT DOESN'T WORK THAT WAY!! I was so afraid I wouldnt be able to wake up by latest 6.30!!! I did though! I woke up at 6 and I saw that I still had time so I slept for another 15minutes. That was a horrible 15minutes because I keep waking up every 5 minutes in case I overslept.

Reached stadium at 7.30am and the queue was already madness. Lol duh.... SHINee fans are just...... No comments. Stood under the hot sun for about 2hours and they brought us to a shelter that hardly had any air circulation. The people in Pen A get to queue outside the stadium where there's wind and stuff. So shiok... Attempted to watch The Orphanage but we were too tired so we slept for like 30minutes. I JUST COULDNT BREATHE!!!! So i woke up. All these shawols don't understand the meaning of NOT cutting queue. Bloody hell. They are so different from blackjacks I SWEAR TO GOD. Actually me and Liqian had alot of space. But these people around us were kinda like booking places for their friends so it became bloody crowded. BITCH PLEASE QUEUE AT THE BACK.

After we were wrist-tagged, we were moved to another place by the security guards. My whole body was aching from god knows what.... Maybe from the unwarmed up thursday impromptu dance. My feet hurts so badly my ankle is kinda acting up again and my whole upper body is so tensed. Like an old aunty... :( Went to Leisure Park's Starbucks to slack and kill time. Didn't kill that much time. Went back at about 2 and started doing lame stuff.

At about 4, chaos happened. Because there was alot of people in Pen B (even though Pen A has even more people), there wasnt enough space to squeezd EVERYBODY in that stupid place we were placed at. So we kinda used the snake method. So when we were asked to stand up and go in, BLOODY BITCHES DON'T KNOW HOW TO STAY IN THEIR OWN QUEUES. THEY JUST SQUEEZED ALL OF US ALTOGETHER. Wtf. Those bitches.

When we were inside the moshpit already, on my right hand side stood a bunch of NP girls. ASSHOLES DESERVED TO BE THROWN INTO A DUNGEON, LOCKED UP FOREVER!!!!! So noisy so inconsiderate. I should've brought tape with me. TAPE THEIR MOUTHS. & this girl who was a part of them, swung her lightstick like she's trying to killing somebody. If she really hit somebody, I swear to god the person will totally have blue blacks man. SO dangerous. But you know what's the good thing, SHAWOLS ARE SO BLOODY SHORT. I felt so different compared to 2NE1's concert last week. Last week i felt so bloody short because almost everyone was either taller or the same height as me. THIS WEEK....... They are ALL shorter than me!!! HAHA so when i tiptoed, I was literally one head above them. Muahahaha advantages of being tall :B

So of course SHINee's concert was brilliant.... I really love them T_T My very first boy group that i liked since kpop generation and I'm still holding on strong!!! It was such a happy moment when they showed the video of them from their debut till now. Because I've been a fan of them since that period till now so looking at it just reminded me of so many things!!! I teared :( They've been through so much.. Sigh and then they sang "The Name I Loved" THIS SONG IS ALWAYS MAKING ME CRY!!! When they made this song for SHINee's Hello Baby ending theme song, I can't stop crying everytime it ended (yes i've watched it billions of times) No other boy group can replace you. Not even MBLAQ NOOOOO!!

 

 

 

 

I love you my shining boys <3

After the show ended, Liqian and I went to KFC to rest first while the crowd in the MRT disperse. Ordered drinks first. But when i finished mine, she still had 9/10 of her drink left!!! So i ordered mashed potatoes!!! I only asked for one but the person gave me another one for free! He was like "1 for 1 ah!" HAHAHA JOKER. Advantages of going to the shop when it's about to close~~~~ :B It's not even leftovers ok it's freshly cooked!

Daddy brought me to supper after that. I knew he was hungry so i obviously couldn't turn down his other when he asked if i was hungry. Even though i just ate like mashed potatos and plenty lot of other rubbish throughout the day, I still ate... Heh

Reached home, bathed and it's already 12... plus! My plan is to head to bed right after I post this up and then sleep to my heart's content!!! & Apparently me and Andrea are going to visit Shafiq at work tomorrow. I'm like stressing out over my mom's birthday card sigh. I really don't know where to find the time!!!! Maybe i'll just write a love letter to her HAHAHA~

Accomplished!!!

BOOYAAAA!

 

Woke up at 2pm this morning feeling so happy. I woke up at 9 at first BY WHATSAPP/MESSAGES. That was when i finished my first beautiful dream~ Must be because of the sentimental songs I played last night. I have this playlist full of sentimental songs. Like i group them according to how they sound and not by genres. So if i feel the "clubbing" mood, i'll go to the "clubbing" playlist. If i feel sad, i'll go to the "sad" playlist. HAHA. I think my dream was stimulated by the song "Daydream" by Super Junior. I don't know. I just keep hearing that song in my dream. Hahaha! I know the lyrics is totally sad compared to my dream la! BUT! There's a LITTLE BIT of link somewhere. & I keep hearing that so....~ LOL that's one of my fave song of Suju~ Not like I know ALL their songs cuz I'm not a super huge fan... But it's very nice. Next favourite would be Love Disease and In my dream~~~~ Haha.

 

Switched off the music at about 11 cuz somehow it became too annoying since it was on repeat throughout the night. I started dreaming again till 2!!! AWESOME!!!!! It's been so long since i had beautiful dreams~

 

Went to the doctor to take medicine for my stressful skin. I cannot tolerate the blemishes anymore. I was looking through my photos like 4months ago and it made me so depressed. SCHOOL WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO MY BODY REALLY... Had my brunch beside the clinic. My queue number was still so far away. Went to the playground at the other side to slack because the swing over there seduced me. The wind was awesome too!!!

 

After spending a bomb on the medicines, headed to Nex to get my cup of coffee and spencer's subway.

 

 

Walked back home feeling totally happy because it was such a cooling day~ Charged my phone for abit and left the house 30minutes after i reached home HAHA. Met up with Jai for a movie!!! Caught "When wolf falls in love with sheep". Ok la the movie was average only... "You're the apple of my eye" was so much better compared to this. I can't believe the "sheep"(lead actress from Fondant garden too) cut her hair till soooo short!!! Oh my!

 

Had dinner at Just Acia and then rushed to Ion's VS to get body lotion!!!!!! HAHAHA sound so stupid. Ok my mother's birthday is coming up! It's like this coming Monday. I don't have time to shop since I'm gonna watch SHINee's concert tomorrow and it's a family day on Sunday... So yeah no more time! Thank god i didn't buy perfume for her!!! Just now when i said goodnight to her, i see her table got this super beautiful pink perfume there. LOL I don't need to buy cake either cuz Spencer will definitely go Secret Recipe and buy.... (HMMM I DONT KNOW BUT I HOPE HE DOES!!! LOL the cakes there are soooo delicious!!!) I could not differentiate the smell at all cuz my nose was having problems!!!! Sigh but now that i'm back home, i can smell it very well! Yay it smells so good I didn't choose wrongly~~~

 

YAY MY DAYS ARE PLANNED!!!!

Saturday - SHINee's Concert!!!

Sunday - Rotting day HA
Monday - Mummy's birthday.

Tuesday - Andrea and I's DATE HAHAHA.

Wednesday - Retail therapy with mummy!

Thursday - TAIWAN GOGO!

 

When i'm back, i'm sure poly students are already having their holidays right? YES I'M SURE! Time to go Ice skating and kboxing and bowling and pooling HAHAHA I MISS DOING ALL THAT!!! So many things to look forward to, so excited hehe byebye! 

The meet up

Sigh screwed body clock. Slept at almost 5 last night again. I just can't get to sleep at night and i really don't know why!!!

Ok ok so yesterday I found out Shafiq also had food poisoning. WHAAAT. Stupid food!!!! So our plans for today were supposed to be cancelled. But i got awakened by Whatsapp messages and Andrea's call... He said he was feeling better and we could meet up. For the whole of this week, whatsapp has been my alarm clock. I choose to ignore it though. SO NOISY it's the holidays!!! Sleep in people!!! I don't like silenting my phone too. Cuz.... I'm too prone to losing my phone around my house so yeah it's safer to just keep it ringing. Haha ok so plans were back on! Jingwen couldn't at first because she had other plans with someone else. But she cancelled it though, to meet us hahahaha sweet right?

Met Andrea at 2.30 when the meeting time was 2. Sigh this girl. I even purposely left the house later so I wouldn't need to wait for her. I still ended up being so damn early. Bewhew... Was drenched in the rain while walking to school!!! Of all parts of my body, MY FRINGE HAD TO GET SO WET. Omg went to dry myself up and find Afiq. Shafiq was stuck at Bugis because of the heavy downpour so Afiq went to fetch him since he had an umbrella~ Slacked at F303 till Jingwen finished her talk and we went to Pomo for lunner/dinch LOL.

Starbucks was giving away free seasonal drinks today!! Like you donate any amount and you get the drink~ Weeeheeeee! Should've ordered what Shafiq ordered!! Cranberry White Chocolate Mocha i think. Omg it is damn nice!!! Totally craving for that right now. T_T

We were clueless of where to go after that. Ok we went St games first. But we walked away cuz it was probably too expensive? Idk. Decided to go Mind cafe instead but it was even more expensive. Sigh went at the wrong time. So embarassing the person was waiting for us to choose our combo but we left after she stopped waiting for us. HAHAHA ended up on the streets.... Oh my sounds so sad. We actually laughed alot on the streets though. Shafiq's been scaring me the whole day!!! I didn't keep count on how many times I got a shock! Haha still couldn't decide on where to go. Like there's nowhere to go.... So we went back to school and started dancing.

Afiq taught us what he and ruishan choreographed for the flashmob that they are planning to do next year. I was not in proper clothes so it was damn uncomfortable for meeeee. After dancing and dancing, we calmed down and started playing this "what if" game that Afiq insists on playing. I can't be bothered to explain how this game works la but i was having a hard time answering Afiq's stupid questions. Like WHAT??? And apparently MY questions are too abstract for Andrea.... Why! "What if dinosaurs still existed???" OMG I HAVE BILLION OF ANSWERS FOR THAT LOL!

Stayed there till about 9ish and went back home. Aw probably won't see Jingwen and the boys till next year already. Cuz our holiday plans are crashed. Jingwen and Afiq and Shafiq will be working most of the time. I'll be flying off next week and when i'm back, Andrea will be gone till after Christmas... By then school is almost reopening!!!

Today turned out expectedly well. Thanks guys for the awesome day. Yeah we always don't know where to go but IT'S STILL FUN SO YAY HAPPY GIRL LOVE Y'ALL :)

This is still quite long but I'm thinking of how I'm gonna spend my Christmas day. It's an annual thing that my parents hold this "party" at my house on Eve. & then on Christmas day itself, i'll rot at home. Sigh this sucks. I always have this beautiful picture in my head of how i'll spend my christmas day. But it has never come true ever. Nooooooooooooooooooooooo can my Christmas day this year be different...? :(

future

So..... My dad has been sick the whole day because of food poisoning.. WHY IS HE SO PRONE TO FOOD POISONING?! Stupid market places. I know your food very nice but please be clean can or not!

So i slept at like 7plus last night. I was sleeping on my sofa... If my mom hadnt woke me up at 10ish, I would've slept all the way till dawn... But i had to wake up at 1. Lol tossed and turned around till about 5ish. My body clock is screwed. Sigh i really need help T_T

I woke up in the afternoon craving for starbucks. Didn't know where to go except Nex. But it was gonna rain! Sigh so i didnt go out. Stuck at home the whole day. Suddenly, my dad called me out and talked about my school and the path i'm taking.

I got so much in my mind but I just don't know how to put it in words. AS USUAL. I feel like the dream in my head is too big to achieve. I feel embarassed telling people about it. Especially to my dad. I feel like he doesn't have faith in me at all. Yes i don't either honestly. That is why I'd like to succeed first before sharing my success. I hate to talk so much about it but end up being a loser. I'm still finding my way through life. I really don't know how am I gonna succeed with millions of successful brilliant dancers out there. I really don't. I know clearly what my standards are and I'm just afraid.

I can say that I'm one of the weakest dancers in my class. Sucks to be me. I used to think I had musicality skills. Well Mycs told me I had none. Then Mycs told me she liked the way I performed. But guess out of 10, how much she scored me for performance? 1. Replication skills.... I don't need to say anything about that cuz I know I suck at replicating steps. I really can't take this in. Whoever's seen me dance and reading this post.... I know you're judging me right now. I know you're saying how Mycs is true to a certain extent. Yes i know it.

How much pressure I'm going through in school. I can never know how to describe it. When my dad asked me if I had any pressure in school, what kind of classmates I had, I really just wanted to cry. I don't know what I should do with my life. I'm at a loss. Yes my dreams are clear but it's too big for me to achieve it.

The bunch of people that I know don't seem to be worrying about their futures at all while I'm just over here freaking out on my own. For now i wanna escape this thinking process because nothing is coming out of it. My father knows nothing. He thinks I never think about my future and stuff. He tells me to be one step ahead of others. I THINK I'M WAY AHEAD THAN OTHERS IN TERMS OF THINKING ABOUT MY FUTURE? I just don't say anything. So many people out there are prepared to just waste 3 years of their life in whatever diploma they are in. Everytime I ask them, "what are you gonna do after you come out with a cert?" All they tell me is "i dont know. just die." Wtf? Do you really wanna die?

Sigh what is life

DAY 1 OF HOLIDAY

Oh my all the shows I watched have so little episodes and now i suddenly have so many episodes to wait for. GOD DYINGGGG

 

Finished the first 3 released episodes of Romantic & Idol AND IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY. They didn't even tell me who chose who and they just ended ep 3 like that. WHAT! Ep 4 has come out and it's not yet subbed... NOOOOO FASTER SUB IT!

 

I'm not a fan of 4minute but I really like Jihyun's attitude in this show. She's so nice so nice I really like her now :') If i can find a guy that's just like her, I'd be so happy! Been feeling so sad for Hyungsik for the 1st 2 episodes because he's always being left out and doesn't talk or interact with other girls. Mir's not even helping because he keeps flirting with Jihyun! Omg Bang mir last warning to you!!! He says he wants to know the other 3 girls but on the inside, he only wants Jihyun. HAHA SO CUTEEE... In short he's just like the male version of me la! The kind that doesn't really talk unless neccessary. Watching him, I now realised why no one likes talking to me (UNLESS YOU KNOW ME, THAT IS). Ha in the middle of the night at 4am I got so upset with myself for being born this way.. Lolllllzzzzz I really wished i was fun and outgoing, even when i'm sad or not hyper..  

 

I'm so happy my face is recovering from all the stupid acne I've been getting from stress and god knows what. Maybe the air outside is so dirty and my skin just can't tolerate it anymore. My forehead, the part of my face that rarely gets pimples, had so many pimples like a week ago. But it recovered OVERNIGHT! So happy! It really felt like a miracle. The moment i woke up on Sunday, everything on my forehead was gone! HAHA I'm gonna give my stupid face 1 more week to let everything be gone. BE GONE!!!! Why am i so unlucky to have such a skin. UNLUCKY PIG FACE.

 

I woke up so early even though I slept at 5 last night. Whatsapp was being so noisy. So i woke up at 10. Didn't even read the messages... I just fell back to sleep and woke up at 12. I'm just so weird. The earlier I sleep, the later i wake up. The later i sleep, the earlier I wake up. Just weird...

 

I kinda miss dancing already... But it seems like my ankle/shin/I REALLY DONT KNOW has not recovered at all. I was doing simple workouts last night because i couldn't sleep. All of a sudden i feel this sharp pain above the ankle area and i was like WTFFFFFF. Yes i said I would go for physio but when I've got the time, my parents don't... & it doesn't open on Sundays. Stupid place. Need to get this fixed asap sigh...

 

TIME IS FLYING!!!! In 4 days I'll be attending SHINee's concert... Maybe on Sunday we'll be visiting Shafiq the Elf. (that's if they don't go without me on Saturday) Then next Thurs, I'll be flying off to Taiwan for 8 days (i think). When i return, it's almost Christmas Eve and then in another week's time... SCHOOL IS GONNA RESUME!!!! WHAT THE HECCCCK I KNOW RIGHT???? & when School resume, we're gonna have to practice and go through polishing the hip hop routines for Open House... (oh no i'm not looking forward to it)

 

Heh okay end I'm gonna go find things to dooooo

Happy Holidays~

Spent my whole day watching Joonseo. LOL ok hello my whole day was very short. I woke up at 2plus, bathed and it was already 3. Watched till about episode 6, my laptop battery died and my head started hurting so i rested for awhile. Now i finished it. SIGH I NEED MORE EPISODES.... Seriously hate waiting for episodes ;(

You know alot of girls have this problem with guys where they don't notice anything about them. Like if they changed their hairstyles, or bought some new clothing, or did their nails or whatever nonsense, they say guys wouldn't notice. I REALISED I'VE NEVER HAD THAT PROBLEM...... LOL On the contrary side..... I WISHED THEY WOULDN'T NOTICE. Like EVERYTHING. I always do something very slight and people notice it. & I feel kinda odd cuz I'll always have to go through the whole process of 'Oh yeah haha yeah i change this or that.' LOL! Ok la if it's good comments then of course I'll feel good HAHA. Am i supposed to feel good....? From my work experience.... NO. Suddenly remembered how much insults i got from the irritating Chris and Kel and XJ while i was working. FIRST DAY AH already notice what i wear. LOL even after not working for 1month and returning, Chris still can tease me. WAAA -fist coming up- (SPEAKING OF HIM... IT'S HIS BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY) why am i repeating what i say i think I've blogged about this before. But yeah seriously.. I've never met any guy that doesn't notice what girls wear or if they've done anything to themselves. My guy friends usually notices like BAM!

ANOTHER THING... I don't get why a normal girl and a normal guy can't be on the same bed together. LOL People's minds are very super polluted nowadays... I'M NOT LOOSE it's people's minds that are fucked. Usually my expression to their replies would be "huh what is wrong". I have to take like 10 seconds to register what their brains are thinking. I MEAN! If there's nowhere else to sleep except that bed, of course sleep there la! Polluted minds leh..

I didn't know hugging was sexual in the past. I didn't know guys would feel differently from what i feel.. LIKE IT'S JUST A HUG what's the big deal. Sigh people around me all polluting my mind. Well at least I still these kinda things are not like first in my brains. I'll still go like 'what's wrong' before getting it. Haha I just gotta say it out cuz I'm seeing all these stuff in wgm.

Just finished Gossip girl too. If i ever have a father like Chuck's dad, I really wouldn't know what to do. Worst guy that's ever existed. & the Vander woodsens are just beyond hope. They are the stupidest girls ever existed!!! Sigh LOL. It's already on the 7th episode. I don't see how this is ending with these never-ending dramas their creating among themselves!!!! Left with 3 more episodes. They better don't disappoint me..!

Hmmm there's kinda alot of things going on my mind right now but i'm trying very hard to block everything all out. Yup sinking myself into many many shows is my way outta this for the moment. I really don't wanna go crazy once I find myself figuring everything out again. Gonna live in my own world for the whole month. I kinda forgot my brother is also on a holiday... Boohoo I thought I'd have the whole house to myself. Holiday one-meal-per-day "diet" is gonna start!!!!!! AND! I can continue reading those books I've bought before school started! I still have 2 unread books rotting on the shelf!!! God i'm like rushing this blog post and I don't even know why. Probably because my bladder is too full. DID I MENTION THAT I ALWAYS NEED THE TOILET URGENTLY AT THE WRONG-EST TIME?! SIGH

ALRIGHT CYA BABIES

2NE1 NEW EVOLUTION CONCERT 2012

Tonight's concert is most amazing experience ever. I'm super proud to be a blackjack, like soooo proud. Sigh why are they so flawless?! It's the B-E-S-T concert I've ever attended!!!!!! Teared up so much after they sang Can't Nobody (which was their last song). Teared up even more after their encore performance of I don't care and I'm the best! Dara cried and made me cry too T_T I didn't want them to go!!!!! Then went in and came back out again for the SECOND ENCORE!!!!! They sang Please don't go and I love you for the second encore~~~ It was awesome. Looking at videos and photos can never be compared to you watching the real thing. I really felt like I was partying... I just really hate the people who were around me.

This girl infront of me was like a skunk!!! Every now and then, her odour would be so strong I can really vomit. I thought i could tolerate it but in the midst of the performance, I couldnt stop sneezing because of her! STUPID SMELLY PEOPLE ALL OF YOU SHOULD DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT DAMNIT. Seriously I can tolerate almost anything in the world and Smelly people are the one thing i really cannot bloody tolerate. You either HAVE NO SMELL, or SMELL GOOD. If you smell bad, please really stay 100metres away from me. I know BO is something some people just naturally have but i really can't stand it. I'm so sorry. 

Photos are not from me... I would've taken if my phone had more battery.. Haha. I love you 2NE1 you're such an inspiration.

I wanted to buy the 2NE1 concert tank so badly... Like seriously. But when we reached, the merchandise queue was insane and even though it stated that they'd start selling at 1, after an hour they still didn't start selling! So we gave up and decided to get it online instead.. Rushed to the soundcheck queue and it was mudafagging long. However managed to squeezed into the 3rd row from the front. Very uncomfortable though, cuz everyone infront of us were damn bloody tall. I REALLY FELT DAMNNNNNNN SHORT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. If i tiptoed any higher I would've gotten leg cramps.

Went back out to queue after the sound check rehearsal. Queued for like 1hour. Watched the 1st episode of Joonseo couple and i laughed like shit by myself... SIGH JOONIE IS FOREVER THE SAME. ALRIGHT THAT'S WHY I LOVE YOU MUACKS. After that we went back in and I was right smack in the front. So happy. Yes they are the best i love all of them. It's just so bloody hard to choose a bias from 2ne1 ok period.

In the midst of the concert, I saw Geraldine took photos with her phone. I wanted memories too so i took my phone out too. But when i unlocked my phone, i recieved a mail from Dayal with the subject "ARTS HISTORY EXAM". Fml i didnt dare to open the email at all. I totally went blank for the whole of "I love you" performance because of the email! IRRITATING! I knew I wouldn't be able to enjoy the performance if i didnt confirm that I've failed. So i opened. THANK GOD IT WASNT!!!! It's just a mass sent email to remind us about the retest for those who failed. ARGHHHH. STUPID TIMING.

NEXT UP!!!! SHINEE!!!!! IN 6 MORE DAYS!!!!~ YAY! I really can't wait to meet up with my butterflies OMG DID I ALREADY SAID THIS??? HAHAHA LET'S GO!!!!

Time to watch the super cute joonseo couple wgm! Weehoo my kpop madness is back. OF COURSE I HAVEN'T BEEN DOING THIS FOR LIKE MONTHS AND MONTHS! IT'S ABOUT TIME I COME BACK. -wide smile-